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Pairing(s)/Character(s): Ron/Lavender as the unfaithful couple, background couple is your choice.
Kink(s): infidelity
Coal (AKA Squicks): None
Prompt: 2nd person pov would be fantastic

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Author: tjs_whatnot
Pairing: Ron/Lavender
Kink: Infidelity
Words: 715
Rating: NC-17
Warning: 2nd person POV

You know what you are doing is wrong, just like you know that everyone who does it says the same thing. There is nothing special about your predicament, nothing extraordinary about your guilt. And there is guilt. A lot of it.

You feel it every time Hermione does something special for you, and there are times when she does these things at an abnormal rate and you worry that she knows; no, you don't worry, you panic. You wake up in cold sweats; you take extra showers at work and Scourgify your clothes before putting them in the laundry.

In turn, you devote yourself to being the perfect husband until you can convince yourself that she doesn't suspect anything, she's just reciprocating your added affections with her own. You even convince yourself that this thing that you are doing behind her back makes you a more attentive husband, a more eager-to-please lover. You're full of shite, and you know it.

The real irony of it is, the only time you aren't riddled with guilt these days is when you're fucking Lavender Brown. The only moment of peace your mind gives you is the times you have her bent over her desk pounding into her as she screams and pants for "More! More! Good Gods, more!!" Or when she's down on her knees sucking your dick until she milks you dry, when she looks up at you with those oddly worshipful eyes, your come dribbling down her chin.

Of course it's not the only irony. The real irony is that you're pretty sure that if you hadn't been the stupidest person in the world and hadn't started fucking the one person that Hermione was legitimately jealous of, she might--might--have been able to someday forgive you… when if she were to find out. But no, you are a true asshole and fell for the one person who could ruin your entire life.

In for a knut, in for a galleon you guess.

And there's the last irony, you haven't fallen for Lavender, not really. You barely like her and you don't think about her at all when you're not together. You think about the ramifications of her all the time, but her? Hardly ever. You tell yourself every time, that it is the last time. And every time you really believe it, but then the guilt gets too much and you need a moment when you don't think about how you are the worst person to ever live. You need to share this vile with someone and Lavender seems to love your vile. She begs for it.

The truth is; you just wanted something, someone that was yours alone, that you don't have to share with your children, your entire family, your best mate, the entire wizarding world. The only person you share Lavender with is a single member of your family, and even then it's not really sharing as what you two are doing are for you two alone. Because yes, while what you're doing is yours alone, Lavender is not. She's married too. Yet another shame you feel is how delicious it is to sit across the table from your handsomest and most popular brother, the Dragon Tamer himself, and know that just that afternoon, his beloved, devoted wife was riding your cock with her tits, letting you come all over her face.

And Lavender is so willing to please you. You have started inventing depravities to try on her. And you're just as willing to give her the things she wants too. Because they're the things you would never want to do to Hermione, the mother of your children. You imagine that she wants you do to the things she wouldn't ask of her husband either, because she still has to look him in the eye the next day and the day after that.

Still, the biggest shame you feel isn't the thrills it gives you to do something so sinister, how weak you are against your own fear and guilt, it isn't how close you get to ruining your life and the life of everyone you hold dear. It isn't even that you're getting used to the shame, used to feeling this weight, this doomed existence.

No, the biggest shame is how very good you are getting at Memory Charms.

Oh my gawd! This is just so messed up. I love that Ron kind of tries to convince himself that this makes him a better husband, more attentive and stuff but in the same breath he knows he's so full of shit.

And fucking hell, Lavander is married to Charlie? That automatically makes it even worse and hotter and kinkier!

And then I get to the last line and I'm like, WHAT! *reads again* OH MY GOD. :D

Which is pretty damn perfect.

I love how you wrote this, love. I loved it. The second person works perfectly. <333

Aww! Thanks darling!

I've written things way more kinky,but rarely have I felt this level of dirty-wrong about it. And it kept just getting MORE dirty-wrong. ;)

The Memory Charm thing? Yeah, a million years ago, I wrote a Ron/Hermione infidelity story and used the charm because--wizards, why wouldn't you and so it was the only way I could end it without worlds crumbling.

Sometimes it's hard for me to remember all the dirty things you've written because you're SO SWEET. And then I go, she wrote A, B, C, D… And like, DAMN! :D

It's awesome, but yeah, I think of you of the sweetest thing and then all the dirty fic comes to mind and I'm like \o/ That's my girl!

Haha! It's all gotta come out somewhere. ;) I write the wicked and weird so I can be proper and decent IRL. But you're the same deary, the sweetest person with the perviest mind. ♥ That must be why we love each other so. <33333

We're the same, absolutely. I mean, it's not like I didn't prompt you Harry/Ron with Hermione watching AND YOU WROTE IT or anything. ;)

♥♥♥ One of the many reasons.

Oh bb, there are no depravities I wouldn't write for you. Or... hardly any I would deny you. <3333

GODYESMOREMOREMORE. I imagine Lavender says that a lot and it's pretty damn perfect for this. I am the biggest absolute sucker of a girl for 2nd person pov. There is just something about it that sucks me in and hangs on tight.

This is depraved and wrong and throw in the Charlie for wronger and it's every freaking thing I ever love about infidelity fic.

God, girl, you hit my every single kink (office sex being another thing that drives me wild). This was ah-maz-ing. *skips over to read again*

Only Lavender could do this to Ron. It was fun to take him to this place, but I will probably have to write a bit of Trio fluff to make it alright. ;)

And I too am a sucker for 2nd person, and yet, this is only the 2ND time I've used it.

Glad you enjoyed darling!

That was wonderful, from the guilt to the way that Ron was so obsessed and twisted up about and at the same time, so regretful but also willing to rationalize it and do anything to keep it. The memory charms, GAH. I love seeing Ron as someone willing to go to lengths to do what he wants, and this is just perfect. Lovely.

Thanks! I like when Ron goes for what he wants too. I'm just not used to him wanting things of this nature, so it was fun to play with. Glad you enjoyed! <333

Oo, this was just dirtyhot! Loved the guilt and the desire and the fact that Ron was putting his relationship on the line for somebody he didn't even really care for. And that last line! Just awesome.

Thanks! I felt so dirty writing it.

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OMG, I love this in such a bad!wrong!don't! way. Which is often a very good way to love something indeed :)

Thank you! That is a very good way to love something. ;) Especially here.

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Oh, man, I love, love, love the warped psychology of this...! The reasons he does this, the fact that he knows his own justifications are bullshit, and the sort of dark, spiraling addiction of it all. I especially like the idea of Ron, the youngest boy who got the most hand-me-downs and the least attention, cheating on Hermione because he wants something he doesn't have to share with everyone. Hermione is the sort who "belongs" to the whole world, in a way, isn't she?

You nailed it, as always. ♥

Thanks bb! It was weird and oddly titillating taking my idea of Ron to this not-my-Ron place. ;)

I'm glad you enjoyed.

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Wow; this is perfection. The last bit? OMG. I love it! <3

Thank you!

That last bit, so fucked up, right? But I imagine there are a lot of wrong!magic wizards do just because they can. ;)

Thanks for reading!

Oh so wrong although I was feeling bad for Ron (a little) until that last line HOLY HELL!
*shakes head* So damn brilliant.

So wrong! I hated doing this to him (and Hermione) but ngl, it was sort of fun too. ;)

Thanks for reading and commenting, bb!

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