|Max Guevera (littlefella) wrote in creative_muses,|
@ 2007-12-19 10:46:00
|Entry tags:||dark angel: max guevera|
December Prompt 1 - Gods wish to punih us
When the gods wish to punish us, they answer our prayers.
You know when you die, your life is supposed to flash in front of you? It doesn't. Maybe because I'm a cocktail or maybe because fate likes to laugh or crap all over me I didn't get the movie version of this is your life. I got a movie of don't you wish this is what happened instead of what did. How's that for crapping on you?
I faced a cloned version of me. She was a little bit older than I was when I'd escaped Manticore. It's weird looking at yourself but you know it's not you, especially when the bitch is holding a gun at you. In my 'don't you wish' movie, I knocked the gun out of her hand and made it away safely with Zack's help.
We were all at Crash celebrating the victory. Zack and Logan were getting along, which should have been my clue. Then Logan and I had some unfinished business that had been interrupted by the mission that needed to be taken care of. In my movie, his apartment was filled with candles. The soft glow from the candlelight made everything look softer, even Logan's features as he looked at me.
We began to kiss, but not the quick press of lips of desperation before one of us has to leave. They were the long, and slow drawn out kind of kisses where you want to savor the other's taste forever. Fate has a sick sense of humor, too. It wouldn't let me finish that dream before reality busted its way inside.
In the middle of Logan and me making love for the first time, a shadow of a raven flew overhead. It startled me enough to break off the drugging kisses. That was a mistake. That was when the dream/vision/movie went to shit. Logan's hand was suddenly covered in blood as it lay over my chest, and that's when I knew it was what I wish had happened instead of what did.
Instead of making love with Logan for the first time, I had been shot in the heart. Sometimes life sucks.