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shieldedbella (shieldedbella) wrote in colligo_threads,
@ 2012-01-26 23:16:00

Entry tags:

bella swan, jacob black

WHO: Bella Swan
WHEN: January 26, early afternoon
RATING: TBD
STATUS: In Progress

Bella sighed as she tried to figure out which direction to turn. She had a long list of books she needed to get for her classes. She knew there wasn't any real rush. Her first day wasn't until Monday. But with everything as it was, she felt as if accomplishing even this simple task she could feel something other than the despair that was plaguing her.

It had been over a week since she had broken things off with Edward. She hadn't seen him since that night, but she did discover he had placed the beautiful ring that had once been his mother's, back onto her hand. He was determined not to give up on her. But he was being patient and he had kept his distance for her sake. Truth was, she missed Edward and it was difficult not to call for him. But she was determined to do what was best for him and in her mind, she knew he was better off without her.

In an attempt to push away the lingering doubts that plagued her about her decision, she studied the handdrawn map one of the students had made for her. She knew it was easier to use the PDA that was provided, but she had made it her goal to be rid of the contraption. But the wretched thing kept popping up. So far she had smashed it, dropped it, burned it, even threw it in the river. Each and every time it magically reappeared and it was beginning to annoy her.

Looking up at the street sign, she turned right and spotted Page Turners just half a block away. She wanted to make it there before closing and she quickly crossed the street, her mind focused on the store before her.

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fursplosions
2012-01-27 05:27 am UTC (link)

Valentine's Day was a couple weeks away and Jacob wanted it to be perfect. After all, it was his and Nessie's first Valentine's Day as an actual couple and he was determined to make sure it was one she didn't forget. Wanting to do everything himself, Jake had decided that he wanted to make dinner instead of making reservations at a restaurant, except he only knew how to cook the basics considering it had been just him and his dad the majority of the time together with the exceptions of when his sisters were around, so he had never really learned to cook. He knew that he could probably ask Emily for help, but he wanted to try this on his own first, which was why he was standing in the cookbook section of the book store, staring at the spines of the various books. He knew what Nessie liked, but wasn't sure what would be the right thing for a Valentine's Day dinner.

Running a hand through his hair, he picked a book up off the shelf and started flipping through it as he heard the bell above the door ding and his attention so wasn't on the book in his hand anymore. It may have been seven years since he'd last been around Bella when she was human, but he would never forget her scent or the sound of her heartbeat. Closing the book, he peered around a bookshelf, just to make sure that it was actually Bella who had just walked in, not that he really needed to check.

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shieldedbella
2012-01-27 06:09 am UTC (link)

Bella smiled somewhat shyly at the store clerk. Her hands fumbled with the pieces of papers she held, finally handing the woman the correct one.

"I need to get everything on this list, please?"

She nervously drummed her fingers on the counter as she waited. She was still contemplating moving into the campus dorms and she figured maybe she should see if they carried a copy of Wuthering Heights in the store. At least it would give her something to do while she hid in her room in the apartment she shared with Edward.

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fursplosions
2012-01-27 06:33 am UTC (link)

Jacob watched Bella as she spoke to one of the store clerks, contemplating whether or not he should try to talk to her or just sneak out. He hadn't expected to feel that pull that he used to feel towards her before everything had changed, but it kind of made sense when he thought about it, because she was human still and she hadn't had Nessie yet and Nessie was a part of Bella whether she accepted it or not so it only made sense that he'd still feel that pull. What exactly that meant, be didn't know, but he couldn't ignore it, so placing the cook book back on the shelf, he stepped out from the bookshelf and into her line of sight, "Hey." He gave her a small smile, but other than that, he didn't get any closer, not wanting her to feel like he was going to try and confront her about anything, because really, he felt awful for how things had gone the first time and didn't want to push her away.

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shieldedbella
2012-01-27 06:44 am UTC (link)

Bella jumped slightly as he spoke. She hadn't noticed anyone in the store, let alone Jacob. As she jumped, she managed to bump into a display, sending several books crashing to the floor.

"Jake." She quickly turned her back, trying to hide her red embarrassed cheeks. She hated being such a clutz and truthfully, she wasn't really prepared to see him after everything.

Her hands fumbled as she tried to collect all the books from the ground.

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fursplosions
2012-01-27 07:11 am UTC (link)

Jacob's feet propelled him forward before he even had a chance to think about it as Bella bumped into the rack and he was crouched down, helping her pick up the books in the blink of an eye, which luckily no one else in the store had noticed, "I didn't mean to startle you." He said, setting a stack aside before reaching out to take hold of one of Bella's hand's gently, not wanting to startle her again. He desperately wanted to fix things between them, because whether they were from different times or whether it was because of the pull he still felt between them, Bella was his best friend and he didn't want to lose her over something that they could control.

"Bella, look at me." The color in her cheeks caused his breath to catch slightly, because it had been so very long since he'd seen her blush or be anything other than extremely graceful, that it almost hurt to see her like this, but he wasn't about to shy away from her or let her close herself off from him.

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shieldedbella
2012-01-27 07:38 am UTC (link)

Bella pulled her hand away from him almost instinctively. In her mind, things were tense between him. In fact, he had run away, from his family, his pack.. from her, last she had seen him in her time.

If that hadn't been enough to leave a rift between the two, the drama with this Renesmee had left her certain that they were just not meant to be friends. She had tried to confide in him and he betrayed her and then allowed that girl to treat her that way.

Bella shook her head at his request and she quickly rose to her feet, bumping the table once more. She was beginning to feel anxious and her hand nervously moved through her hair as she muttered under her breath.

"Shit." Shifting nervously, she said,"I have to go."

She was knew she'd have to return to the store, but at the moment, she just wanted to get as far away from it... from Jacob, as possible.

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fursplosions
2012-01-27 07:44 am UTC (link)

This was not how Jacob wanted his first real meeting with Bella to go and he knew he that part of it was probably his own fault, but could she really fault him for confiding in Nessie about the texts? Okay, so maybe this Bella could get mad at him for that, because she didn't really know him like this and finding out about him and Nessie had been a shock, but he hated the thought that they would never be friends again, "Bella, please. Give me a chance to explain." He wanted to reach out and grab hold of her arms and keep her from leaving, but he thought that, that would only make things worse and if she was going to stay he wanted her to do it of her own accord and not because he was making her, "Don't make me beg."

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shieldedbella
2012-01-27 08:05 am UTC (link)

Bella stopped just short of the entrance to the shop, her voice low and tense.

"Explain what?" She turned her dark eyes to glare at him, "Explain how you betrayed my trust by allowing someone else to see our private conversation? Or how about the fact you weren't man enough to ask me what I was referring to, when you thought I was blaming you for something? Or better yet, allow that girl to attack me?"

She raised her hand to prevent him from answering.

"Better yet, save your breath. A true friend, wouldn't have done any of those things."

She turned on her heel and pushed through the door. The rush of fresh air didn't help any as she felt as if she were suffocating. She was consumed with anger and hurt and headed towards the park that she had seen on her way to the store.

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fursplosions
2012-01-27 09:26 am UTC (link)

Okay, yeah, so he deserved that, but he wasn't about to just let her get away like this, because if he let her walk away then he was afraid that he wouldn't get this chance again to explain. So, whether she wanted to listen to him or not, Jacob followed after her, but again, made no move to try and restrain her. Instead he simply talked as he followed her and whether or not she listened, that was up to her, but he had to get this out and he had to do it now. "Bella, I'm gonna talk and you can ignore me if you want, but I've got to say this. I only showed her because she knew I was upset and we don't keep things from each other. We were all upset that night and said things that we didn't mean and I'm not saying that any of us were right or wrong, but we definitely let our emotions get the better of us." He continued following after her, ignoring the looks he got from passers-by, "We shouldn't have expected you to accept everything right off the bat and probably could have gone about telling you about Nessie and about me differently and if I could change how it happened then I would, but you can't just throw away what we have over this. After everything we've been through...Bella, please..."

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shieldedbella
2012-01-27 09:53 am UTC (link)

"Go away, Jacob."

Her hands gesture wildly as she tries to ignore him. Completely exasperated, she stops and turns towards him.

"Get it through your thick head, Jake. I don't care that you are with her! I'm mad you thought I had a problem with it and didn't have the balls to ask me yourself instead of sicking your girlfriend on me."

She turned and cut across the street towards the park. Almost to her destination, she was too angry to notice as her foot caught on the curb of the sidewalk and began to fall to her knees.

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fursplosions
2012-01-28 01:59 am UTC (link)

"I didn't just mean about us being together, but about her in general. We should have figured you might not be from the same time as us, but it's not as if you look that much different, so we just assumed..." Jacob sighed, not ready to leave despite Bella wanting him to, "And I didn't sic her on you, Bella. Do you really think I'd do that? She was upset. Can you blame her? Don't you think I tried to calm her down?" As Bella tripped over the curb, Jacob moved forward and grabbed hold her her before she could actually hit the ground, "Are you okay?" It had been a long time since he'd been in a situation like this, where he'd felt the need to protect Bella, but it all came back to him as if seven years of her being a vampire had never happened.

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shieldedbella
2012-01-28 05:57 am UTC (link)

She tried to push him away from her, her hands feeling as if she were trying to move a brick wall.

"First of all, you weren't here when she shoved her existence down my throat. Second of all, they knew Edward wasn't from the same time and didn't allow him a chance to tell me anything about what was going on."

She took in a deep breath. Her hand had finally stopped hurting from the last time she had punched Jacob and in this moment, she was tempted to do it again.

"She had nothing to be upset about. I wasn't talking about the two of you. God, is everyone around here so freaking self-centered?" She took in another long breath, trying to mentally count to ten, before trying to talk in a calmer tone. "I wasn't referring to the two of you in any form or fashion. So yes, Jacob. I can blame her. She should have minded her own business and you shouldn't have been breaking my trust by showing her everything I said. Now please go away."

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fursplosions
2012-01-29 05:29 am UTC (link)

Jacob sighed once he made sure Bella was alright and moved back, giving her some space, but he couldn't help the fact that he looked like a kicked puppy, "Bella, are you really going to push me out of your life over this? We all overreacted and jumped to conclusions, but you're my best friend, Bella. Please, just give me a chance to really explain." He knew that Nessie didn't want anything to do with Bella, but he couldn't imagine not having Bella in his life, "Can't we go somewhere and talk? Please."

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shieldedbella
2012-01-30 08:54 am UTC (link)

Bella shook her head and took a step back. She was surprised to by how strong her voice sounded as she spoke.

"Go somewhere and talk about what, Jake? Hasn't this been us talking?" She raised her hand to indicate that she had no interest in his response. "There is nothing left to discuss. Edward and I are over, just like our friendship is."

Her hand felt odd without the beautiful ring she had worn. Even as short of a time that she wore it, she couldn't help but think about how right it had felt when Edward had placed it on her. Dropping her hand, she felt a sense of sadness within her.

"It's over, Jake. You all have moved on with your lives and it's only fair that I get to do the same."

She turned her back and headed into the park. She hoped he wouldn't follow her any further. She was tired and truthfully, she just wanted to be alone. Completely alone.

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