15 December 2018 @ 02:05 pm
 
I envy normal people.

Who don't have a panic meltdown everytime they need to leave.

Today's supposed to be my first solo bus trip but I'm not ready. Ian and I have done several bus trips together and it's been fine but the idea of getting on the bus by myself is frightening.

Why do I feel so small?
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Current Mood: scared
 
 
14 December 2018 @ 08:04 am
Dusting this journal off  
I can't believe it's been so long since I last posted.

Partly because I got sucked back into Tumblr again with it's shiny gifs and a way to babble easily on my phone... but now Tumblr is doing it's whole flagging of random blogs some that don't even post nsfw content and therefore it's time to go back to an older form of fandom.


So Hello Again!

I missed you. I just suck at focusing on more than one social media site at a time. I'm awful.

Since I've last blogged, I've moved again but not to a house. But I do love our current bathroom, the tub is a garden tub.

More importantly I've started therapy and for the first time in years I'm leaving the house on my own. Prior to October it had been 13 years since that happened. I'm still really proud.

Tomorrow will be my first solo bus trip. I tried on Monday since Ian took off to take me to some medical tests but the bus driver drove right past me even though I was waiting at the stop holding my bags and standing.

I've got some medical issues going on with my thyroid and this time last week I was launched into euphoria because it's not cancer!  This week they did another imaging test but with an iodine pill that will hopefully answer questions about what's up with my wonky thyroid/calcium levels etc.

Sadly surgery was taken off the table only to be put back on because the calcium levels in my blood stream are not good. And if my hypothyroid is borked it'll have to come out.

I've also been doing a lot of writing lately for Miraculous Ladybug, a new fandom for me as of October/November. 




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Current Mood: thoughtful
 
 
05 December 2018 @ 01:39 pm
I have the most boring, PG-rated Tumblr ever.  
I'm something like 100 of 179 pages back (I don't infinite scroll) in my quest to see if I've ever been adult-flagged, and so far, nope, not even the mermaids and their female-presenting nipples are not adult-flagged. I guess they're artistic or something.

However, I've discovered that sometimes I've saved things to watch or refer to later, and then have not done so. Whoops.

So. A selection of the world's most boring Tumblr posts, to...refer to later.

Realistic Travel Speeds: On Foot, On Horseback, At Sea, By Pigeon

I really need to just copy this image into my Seventh Moon Rising reference Scrivener file.

Knife Fighting Techniques, especially hand grips

Look, you never know when you're going to want to write someone needing to stab someone with a knife. Realistically. I have a novel where that happens. It might happen again. I write vampires! They're murdery! It could transfer to proper staking technique!

I'm way too defensive about this. (It's for fiction, I'm a writer, we all know the drill.)

How to make a flower crown. Clearly I need to make blood red flower crowns and tie in some glossed-up pomegranates to that shit so I can cosplay as Persephone.

For tonight, we tag this one on Pinterest!

When life gives you lemons, add some whiskey to that shit and THEN make lemonade.

Pin.ter.est.

Like a Prayer. The 1940s swing cover that I saved "to listen to later" and never did.

The Epic of Gilgamesh in Sumerian. Which I also did not "listen to later."

Sweet Child of Mine. The soul version. By a woman of color.

Last, but not least, because I forgot about it:

100 legal sites for free books on the internet.

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05 December 2018 @ 07:49 am
Tumblerpocalype all the way  
http://cesperanza.tumblr.com/post/180721322260/just-wanted-to-say-thank-you-for-the-message-of

My autocorrect says "tumpblerpocalypse" should be "impermissible." Hah.

Quote from Lim in the above link:

"our network, fandom, is itself a huge resource that we have, because networks themselves have power in distributed systems!Right! This is exactly it. I have a foot in both worlds b/c of RL (meshnet stuff) and it’s honestly whiplash to go from distributed computing and decentralised web stuff where they are wading through tools and software and approaches and ideas but don’t have the networks (the largest p2p search engine has like, 600 peer operators, approximately the size of an abandoned tumblr about the sock choices of Bucky Barnes) and fandom where the #1 concern is how to cope with the avalanche of content and people and sheer BYTES and ACTIVITY we produce. It’s like, fandom is constantly making these posts going ‘but what are we going to do with all this GOLD? We just can’t DEAL with this amount of GOLD. THIS GOLD IS A GODDAMN ENVIRONMENTAL HAZARD.’

I need another computer-based icon.

Also interesting: State of the Migration: On fannish archival catastrophes, and what happens next by [personal profile] greywash.

Plus this chain on [tumblr.com profile] limblogs our network, fandom, is itself a huge resource that we have, because networks themselves have power in distributed systems! (Which is part of the other discussion that I've linked above.)

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04 December 2018 @ 09:16 am
I bask in the warm glow of nostalgia  
Someone dug this Google Cache of the talk below up and posted it around and I remember having lived through the dissolution of Delicious and fandom running to Pinboard. (Remember when it was del.icio.us? Oh boy, back in the day.)

As I also remember Strikethrough. (I haven't used my strikethrough tag in forever.) Plus the slow death of Geocities. MySpace. Usenet. Etc. Fuck, I'm old.

This presentation below explains why, no matter how much of a trash fire fandom can be or how terrible my life is, or how busy or not-actively fandomy about things I am, I will always work to be a part of fandom and will occasionally dig a post about a show out of my brain or throw out a drabble or something. I love fandom.

Fan is A Tool-Using Animal

(It's my busy season, I haaaaaaate my busy season.)

Relatedly: If You See Something, Save Something – 6 Ways to Save Pages In the Wayback Machine

ETA: Also, apparently Dreamwidth has Mobility as a style option for mobile browsing. I'm going to set it up later this week and see how it works. (I can always go back to my current style if I want to.)

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