Mir waited. From the outside it didn't look like Carrick was surprised, but Mir knew better. Carrick was probably wondering why Mir would ask. Only when he asked for an explanation, did Mir walk around the chair he had been behind and sit down.
"I can not stop thinking of what I did to Emrys. Yes as a master I am allowed to do whatever I want to them, that is my prerogative. But you see I grew up with a very close relationship to a slave." he left out that that slave had been his mother. "She taught me things about slaves and their feelings. Then I got Jenn who is very much the slave I thought I wanted, obedient, never thinking about herself, then Emrys came along. He has challenged everything I thought I wanted. He is obedient, but I find myself wanting to sit and talk with him, banter with him." Mir looked down at his hands that were now ringing themselves.
"After the punishment he went into a shell. He no longer trying to joke with me and speak his mind. I don't want him to be more like Jenn." He didn't want Jenn to be like Jenn. "I have asked forgiveness for punishing him for something that he did not do, but I cannot forgive myself. That is where the punishment comes in. If you punish me for what I have done then I will be able to forgive myself. Jenn looked so peaceful after her punishment."