"It's balm..." Jenn told him quietly as she applied the palm as tentatively as she could yet still he hissed in pain. He would heal just fine but it would be painful and she wouldn't recommend sitting down for a while. The kindness he insisted on showing her made her feel even smaller. She managed to finish applying the balm before she had to sit down on the floor, she was shaking so badly. The tears had stopped but the feeling had not.
"Emrys..." she whispered "It's not you that's worthless... it's just me" her voice shook as she spoke but she didn't stop. She was scared that if she stopped she wouldn't be able to get it all out and Emry's needed to know that it was her fault and not their Masters. That she had caused all of this.
"I wanted to watch... to feel safe again. I thought I was helping... doing the right thing". Jenn hadn't realised just how different Emrys and she were until he had been punished. Had she been in his place she would have thanked her Master for punishing her and taking away the guilt of all she had done to displease him. Emrys wasn't like that but she had realised it too late.
"It was me" Jenn burst into tears, no longer able to hold them back. She was utterly worthless and felt more so than ever right now.