"But don't you get annoyed by it? Me always second guessing? You say you love me and then my brain picks it apart? I would think anyone would be annoyed with it." Well he was the only one that really knew what was in his brain and whether he wanted to share it with Nate or not. "You really will get tired of the amount of times my brain second guesses everything."
He snuggled in closer. Never had he thought himself a whore with Nate and he didn't want to start. But he did want to get back to the way they were. "I love you, Nate. Even when I think the sky is falling you always come in like my knight in shinning armor. And heaven forbid no more sex. I think I would just shriveled up and die." He chuckled, stroking Nate's hand.
He was willing to force himself at least for a little while. Vanilla sex was not all that forced but anything kinkier would be. "How do we get back to where we were, besides erasing our memories of that night? Well the bad ones."