All the words, it was true. He was Nate's and would always be. He loved his boyfriend so much that it hurt sometimes. It was just hard to see past all the wrong that had had happened to see everything behind it. Nate making love to him against the door. Whispering into his ear, all his love, all the things they would do at the club. They. It was for then that Lucien wore the plug, to keep him open for Nate and only Nate.
The tears had already started to fall. "Then why do I feel so dirty?" He sobbed, holding on to Nate's strong arms. "Why do I feel it is my fault, that I am not good enough? That if I go back to the sex before that all I will feel is like a whore. Just wanted to be fucked. I don't want to make you dirty, but I also don't want you to get bored with me and leave. I know you won't but I can stop thinking it. I can't lose you, never."