Need to get my spiritual life back in order
Chapter 5 in Crystal Healing by Katrina Raphaell talks about exorcising negitive feelings with crystals. She uses a man that had an uncontrollable temper that she worked on as his temper was hurting his family. I actually do have a bad temper and while that isn't what is bothering me right now, my depression is negitive and will lead to a temper outburst as it has in the past. Actually tonight, I've been jumping from to angry to sad to angry and sad again. I feel like a yoyo. I hate this feeling. Time to go through my crystals and get the appropiate ones work on some energy work before bed. I need to do something. I hate feeling like this and it is only a matter of time before my family can't take it anymore. I have so much emotional baggage still from my mother that I need to purge. I honestly wonder and not for the first time if my life wouldn't be better without her in it at all. I feel guilty for that but the more I'm around her the more she affects me in the wrong way. It is a toxic relationship that I'm not truly free of yet but I need to be.