HP drabble: No Forgiveness [Draco/Snape, adult]
Title: No Forgiveness Author: celandineb Fandom: HP Pairing: Draco/Snape, sort of Rating: barely adult Warnings: None, no actual chan. Summary: Forgiveness isn't easy. Note: Double drabble written for snegurochka_lee's birthday... although a day late. Sorry, hon, and I hope you like it anyway!
I stood there, and couldn't do it. My life – my parents' lives – depended on me killing Dumbledore, but somehow I knew that I could not say the words and mean them. The old man rambled on, and I kept telling myself to raise my wand, to try at least, damn it, because if I tried and failed I could beg forgiveness. This was the wizard who'd defeated Grindelwald, after all, no shame to me if I couldn't kill him, but shame indeed if I didn't even make the effort.
But those blue eyes looked straight through me, and I cringed inside. It was as if he could see all my fears, all my weaknesses; worse even than Snape when I pretended I didn't need his help. I'd let Snape see how I used to dream about him, dreams that embarrassed me to remember, of sucking him off or having him take me from behind, rough and fast, but it was better for him to see those than to confess to my failures. I don't know if either of us can forgive the other now, that he saved me in the end, killing Dumbledore and then running, taking me with him.