|Celandine's Chronicle (celandineb) wrote in cels_fic_haven,|
@ 2011-07-26 15:18:00
|Entry tags:||hp ficlets harry, hp ficlets remus/sirius, hp quill-it 100.3|
HP ficlet: Crush [Harry, Remus/Sirius, general]
Pairing: Remus/Sirius, unrequited Harry/Sirius
Length: 350 words
Warnings: teen angst
Summary: Harry watches Remus and Sirius together.
Note: For quill_it prompt 50, "possessive".
When he saw Sirius again, Harry intended to rush over and hug him. He was stopped not so much by Molly Weasley's restraining hand as by the sight of Remus standing behind Sirius. Something about the angle of Remus's body, the tilt of Sirius's head, made Harry feel as though he had taken a Bludger to the stomach.
Surreptitiously he watched them over the following days. Ron might not have believed it, but Harry was certain: Sirius and Remus were lovers. And, he concluded gloomily, they probably had been since many years back, long before Sirius had been incarcerated. They acted too much like an old married couple for their relationship to be new.
His initial shock wore off, but it took a while to figure out how he felt. He had hoped that if he ever had the chance to stay with Sirius, his godfather would give him some of the attention and affection that he'd never had from the Dursleys, but between Order business and Remus, that wasn't happening. On the other hand, he had some idea of how awful Sirius's life had been for the past fourteen years. Harry felt obliged to be glad for Sirius's sake that he had someone to turn to now; Harry just wished that he could be the one to give that support.
Seeing Sirius and Remus together, Harry finally realized that he fancied his godfather. He tried to feel guilty about it -- Sirius was old enough to be his father, after all -- but he hadn't even met the man until a little over a year ago. "Godfather" was just a word, not a real relationship. He couldn't really feel like a godson. Harry did feel guilty for wishing that Remus were somehow out of the way, because he liked Remus as well. He just wished it wasn't Sirius who put the smile on Remus's face.
All things considered, Harry was glad when summer ended and he could go back to school. At Hogwarts he wouldn't have to hide his jealousy each time that Sirius touched Remus instead of him.