Celandine's Chronicle (celandineb) wrote in cels_fic_haven, @ 2010-12-12 19:19:00 |
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Entry tags: | hp ficlets remus/sirius |
HP ficlet: Island [Remus/Sirius, general]
Title: Island
Author: celandineb
Fandom: HP
Pairing: Remus/Sirius
Rating: general
Length: 250 words
Warnings: angst
Summary: Life after Azkaban is simply not the same.
Note: For aome, who wanted Sirius/Remus or a character study, prompt "unexpected gift". The title is an allusion to John Donne.
Remus had written to him, as soon as he'd known Sirius was free, a long letter pouring out his guilt over his belief that Sirius had betrayed James and Lily, his grief over Sirius's suffering in Azkaban. He begged Sirius to forgive him.
After a while, Sirius did. There was after all no one else, in more ways than one, yet the decision to forgive was not a calculated one. As the memories of Azkaban began to fade -- never to disappear, never, but the mercy of time's veil was drawn across his memory -- Sirius was able to see past his own years of torment and understand that Remus had suffered too.
The Black house was the only gift he could give to the Order. He guessed it was not unexpected by Dumbledore, though he had never been able to discern how that man thought. Wretched though it was as a home, it was better by far than prison, and he had the comfort of having Remus stay with him now and then. When first Remus tried to kiss him, Sirius could not respond; he had forgotten how.
Remus was persistent, however, and if their lovemaking now did not live up to his memories, he never said so. Sirius himself no longer had that basis for comparison. At most he had a vague sense of something missing. Remus accepted the changes in him, even that Sirius preferred to sleep as Padfoot. The dog lived in the moment and did not dream.