I didn't like the sound of that. It didn't convince me at all, and I knew then that he probably wasn't going to try very hard. I felt a lump in my throat, but I nodded quickly, plastering on a smile. "Okay, that sounds nice."
There was a big part inside me that wanted to reach out to him, to stand up and run to him like I used to be able to, to hug him tight. I'd always liked Jacob's hugs. They were so inviting. So warm. So strong. I wondered if I'd ever feel that sort of security again. When he said they had to go, I wanted to protest and ask him to stay longer, to fill me in on what was going on in the outside world. But I knew that would be too selfish of me, and that he obviously didn't want to linger.
So I waved them goodbye, smiling as sincerely as I could, "Bye, Jake. Bye, Leah. Take care of yourselves, I'll see you soon!" I was still hopeful, at least.
Like I had predicted, a few minute after they had left, I started bawling.
My jaw locked the instant Bella asked him if he would come visit her. Yeah, sure, they might have been friends before, but I was going to do everything in my power to keep him away from her. That girl was a monster. She sunk her claws deep into his heart and sucked him dry of everything he had. It wasn't healthy for him to be around her, even if she didn't hold the same type of appeal for him. It wasn't healthy, and I was there to protect him, so I had to do what I could.
But man, was I relieved when Jake finally said we were going to go. I was a little sad a fight hadn't broken loose, but it was probably better that it happened this way. I chanced one last glance over at Bella, though I wished I hadn't because she still gave me the willies, and another shiver ran down my spin.
"Peace," was all I muttered before I more or less dragged Jacob out of the house and as far, far away from that place as I could.
"Ugh!" I exclaimed once we were free, "I feel so dirty, I need another shower!"