Wow! So much more than porn. The dynamics of that arc tend to mystify and elude me yet reading this so much made sense. It really resonated with me especially this:
Because this time, what he was doing was darker - less untouchable superhero and more self-righteous vigilante.

But Justin had never been a self-righteous person, and so to justify the violence and the bitter words against those "mother fucking asshole straight guys," he'd tapped into pain that had opened inside him like a newly formed fissure.

this:
Brian was silent. There was nothing in his statement that he could refute, because it was all true. As true as the words Justin had reiterated back to him verbatim when they had wrestled the other night on the floor: "The ones that hate you to your face, and the ones that hate you behind your back." And as twisted as those words had become in his pretty little mouth, he had been the one to put them there first.

and of course this:
"Don't," he whispered into his ear, twining their fingers together as he stirred his hips, causing Justin to shiver under his touch. "Don't do it anymore," he pleaded.

"I have to," was the only thing Justin said back.


You used the sex as it is on the show to tell us something about Brian and Justin, where they are and how they feel in ways words can't. Fabulous