|Dennis Creevey (bd_dennis) wrote in beyond_dark,|
@ 2008-06-30 07:38:00
Please, before you burn this letter, I just needed to say I'm sorry. I... I honestly don't know what's happened. I've been trying hard now for months to fight these changes in me, and you saw me at my worst.
I wake every night with the guilt of all that I've done; of all that I've become. I know you can never forgive me for any of it, but I just wanted you to know that I just don't know what to do any more.
I am trying hard to fight this - to fight what I've become. I'd like to see you again, Colin. I wanted to owl first, just so I wouldn't scare you. I'm sorry I did that. I don't know what came over me. Yes I do, and I hate myself even more. I really don't like what I've become, and you're the only person I could think to go to for help. Please Col, you're my only hope...