|Dennis Creevey (bd_dennis) wrote in beyond_dark,|
@ 2008-06-30 07:38:00
|Entry tags:||* june 2006, - complete, colin creevey, dennis creevey|
OWL: Dennis to Colin
Date: 29 June 2006 (sunset, just as he's waking)
Characters: Dennis Creevey, Colin Creevey
Summary: Dennis thinks on Luna's suggestion, and owls his brother. Of course, all isn't as it seems.
Dennis had thought long on Luna's suggestion to owl his brother. He had mulled it over, and thought perhaps that waging a terrorising war through words and owls truly couldn't hurt him. The idea of scaring Colin that way was something he couldn't resist.
But then he thought on Luna, and the 'act' he was playing in her presence. Could he, perhaps, fool his brother into thinking he'd had a change of heart? It was an interesting idea. Fool him and play the role of a tortured soul tormented by the demons of the crimes he'd committed.
It was very, very interesting.
There was only one way to find out.
Please, before you burn this letter, I just needed to say I'm sorry. I... I honestly don't know what's happened. I've been trying hard now for months to fight these changes in me, and you saw me at my worst.
I wake every night with the guilt of all that I've done; of all that I've become. I know you can never forgive me for any of it, but I just wanted you to know that I just don't know what to do any more.
I am trying hard to fight this - to fight what I've become. I'd like to see you again, Colin. I wanted to owl first, just so I wouldn't scare you. I'm sorry I did that. I don't know what came over me. Yes I do, and I hate myself even more. I really don't like what I've become, and you're the only person I could think to go to for help. Please Col, you're my only hope...