Elladora Bulstrode (bd_elladora) wrote in beyond_dark, @ 2008-03-29 08:50:00 |
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Entry tags: | * march 2006, - complete, - plot: pox virus, elladora bulstrode |
RP: Shhh, don't tell anyone.
Date: March 29, 2006
Characters: Ella
Location: The Shack
Private/Public: Private
Rating: G
Warnings: None
Summary: Ella thinks this is all her fault.
The room was almost eerily quiet as Ella woke, looking around to see where mummy and daddy was. She didn't like the Shack. It smelled like sick people and mummy was just lying there, and somehow Ella didn't think she heard her at all when she spoke to her. If she'd heard her she would have woken up by now.
But mummy hadn't even woken up when the baby died. Nothing woke mummy up at all anymore.
Daddy said she had to have faith, but it was hard when mummy was just lying there. Especially since it was all her fault. She was a smart girl, mummy and daddy always said so, and she'd figured it all out. It was all her fault because the healer had said she could get mummy sick if mummy didn't leave, but she'd been sick for days before and mummy had been there always. The baby was her fault too. She'd wanted a brother, even said that girls were boring. The baby had been a girl, so it had to be because she didn't want a sister that the baby was dead and mummy would be so upset when she woke up. Daddy was really sad too. So sad that Ella hadn't dared tell him about how it was all her fault. She didn't want him to stop loving her for making mummy sick and killing the baby.
Hugging Dragon close to her she tried not to cry. She was a big girl and she shouldn't cry and if she did cry she'd wake up daddy. He needed his sleep, he was really tired all the time now. Sniffling quietly into the stuffed dragon, she curled up. She was bored to be in bed all the time, didn't have any pox marks left and didn't have any fever. The healer said she was fine, but they didn't go home because mummy was still sick and daddy couldn't be here if she was at home. She wanted Liam, and for mummy to wake up, and for everything to be like it had before she had made mummy sick and killed the baby. Maybe if she was a really good girl, and stayed really quiet not to wake up daddy things would be all right? She needed them to be all right. She just had to make sure to keep her secret so that mummy and daddy didn't stop loving her.