For a man who'd ran from relationships all his life, who'd avoided trusting, getting close, this was probably the most terrifying situation in the world. Yet the option of not getting out of bed and closing that short distance between them wasn't really an option at all any more.
He was still terrified. Still scared shitless that he'd mess things up. But for once he didn't think too much before acting and he didn't even hesitate before he let his hand sneak around Percy's neck as he leaned down and kissed him. Really kissed him. There was nothing chaste over the kiss or him, not even when he pulled back and leaned his forehead against Percy's.
'I know what I want, Percy, it was never about that. Only if I can ever give enough, if I can be enough.'