Below are the most recent 5 friends' journal entries.

Friday, December 4th, 2009
kaesa	1:53a	So on Tuesday (I think?) I posted Chapter 8 of the Founders fic on Tamarind Chutney (LJ), FanFiction.Net, the Archive of Our Own, and Skyhawke. I think this was the last chapter I posted before I stopped posting/writing it for a while and then decided to revise years later, although I didn't stop writing it for a while, I don't think. The chapters I've written since are better, I think, and in the final revision, once I've completed the fic, I expect to remove at least a chapter's worth of material. Anyway, that plus this chapter -- which is mostly about the characters' pasts and what went wrong and what, miraculously, didn't -- made me think about where I was when I started writing this fic. I came up with the characters (roughly) in middle school, actually, although they've changed drastically since then, and thematically it's really such a high-school-me story. It's full of insecurity and ego, and ego covering up insecurity, and in some cases insecurity covering up ego. Body issues and self-loathing are a big deal -- which perplexes me a bit, since I didn't notice that until I dealt with my own Fat Shame -- and the six main characters are (each in their own way) clinging frantically to academic interests because the world around them is so incredibly hostile and they want to be in a place where people aren't like that. And I'm really glad that I'm no longer in the severe Godricky stages of self-loathing, because that stuff is exhausting to deal with, and more interesting to write now that I'm not quite in the middle of it. And now for some music: "The Mountain," Dave Carter and Tracy Grammer I was born in a forked-tongued story / Raised up by merchants and drugstore liars. / Now I walk on the paths of glory / One foot in ice, one in fire. This is for Godric, and his "wait, how did I even get here? I started way over there!" moments. Sometimes you just do things and stuff happens, and suddenly people think you're, like, a real person with a brain or something. "Compute," Soulwax Every time this happens, / Some representative of instinct / Slips you his business card and leaves you / To figure out what it means. This is for Helga, who, in this chapter, has spotted a hole in her assumptions about her and her friends' lives, and is having trouble not picking at it, even though it itches like crazy. "The Return to Oz," Scissors Sisters Please help me, friend, from coming down / I've lost my place and now it can't be found. / Is this the return to Oz? / The grass is dead, the gold is brown and the sky has claws. I think of this as a Salazar song, but it could really apply to a lot of the characters, especially in this chapter, which is about being an adult and remembering being a kid, and wondering what even happened back then, anyway, because the way you remember it is almost certainly not how it was. (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 28th, 2009
dreams_exposed	9:10p	Tis the Season I have been looking for years (and years) for a video that I saw once, long ago in the early '80's. Yes, once, it made that much of an impression on me. It has been a favorite song of mine ever since the album (yes, vinyl) came out. No matter how many times I hear this song, it makes me cry. I've posted the video, as well as the mp3. I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do. ( Because I love to share ) (Comment on this)
kaesa	2:20a	Silly AIM meta/fic in the same off-the-cuff vein as this. Edited slightly. Um. And character death. That's basically the premise. kaesa: jesus. kaesa: PP 70 – Wizard Card # 14: Thaddeus Thurkell (1632 – 1692) – Famous for producing seven Squib sons and turning them all into hedgehogs in disgust. thinkatory: ... kaesa: I am picturing Helga beating him to death with a shovel. kaesa: it is a nice image. thinkatory: Thanks Helga! ( and then it devolved into not really a conversation, or at least not one between me and Kitty ) Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 26th, 2009
kaesa	11:58a	D: D: D: ...Look, Captain Jack Harkness, intergalactic manwhore, has done some pretty awful things in his long life. BUT SINCE WHEN DOES HE RAPE PEOPLE? Is there some part of relevant Whoniverse canon that I am totally missing? If so, could someone please tell me what it is, so that I can KEEP MISSING IT? (I mean, aside from that thing with Owen in the first episode of Torchwood. That scene is made of ick. And if you agree, don't google for discussion on it, because half the forum threads are full of guys going "lol, that was funny, you guys are taking it too seriously, I wish I had that stuff." I guess this is the Axe/Lynx demographic.) ...Okay, skimming the fic, the author seems to have gotten the Time Agency mixed up with the Rape Agency, and Jack ("Seth") has had some kind of horrible personality transplant and should be on every Sexual Offenders list ever. 0_o Never mind. I did see the Rape/Non-Con warning, but I saw that it was a Big Bang fic (and therefore long) and assumed it had something to do with the plot/character arc. And that was depressing, so I leave you with this cheering fanart. Current Mood: disgusted (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009
kaesa	10:31p	So last week I posted about the Archive Of Our Own, which if you missed it is being called AO3 because AOOO sounds like a basset hound. But I didn't really post as a reader. It didn't occur to me because I had just spent several days uploading all of my fanfiction there. (Well, that I still like. I actually do have two Greek mythology fics that I haven't posted there, but the second one is a sequel to the first, which was written in high school and has some gender issues I'm really not proud of.) Anyway, after all that posting, I had kind of expected people to read my fic, but I hadn't actually gotten around to reading their fic. And omg you guys, AO3 is great for fic-reading. At least for me. ( AO3 as a reader. ) Anyway. Having said all that, Chapter Seven of Between Here and Now and Forever is posted on: The Archive Of Our Own FanFiction.Net Skyhawke LiveJournal In honor of this, ( more YouTube music links! ) (Comment on this)