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Brendan Prince (listentomyvoice) wrote in badwater_rpg,
@ 2009-02-21 21:28:00

WhoBrendan and Carson
What Brendan needs to talk with Carson
Where Brendan's house
When Saturday night
Rating/status tba / in progress

So, Brendan would admit that he had noticed that Carson did have some sort of affection towards him, but a crush? Ever since William had brought it up, Brendan had been thinking about it, taking not of things Carson did, said, etc.. And it would add up to crush if it wasn't Carson, really, but Brendan just had his doubts. The man just wanted affection, and Brendan gave it, and they were friends.

Right?

Brendan walked into the house with a whistle, knowing he had to talk to Carson today about it, or he'd burst. So, pulling off his coat, he called to the man.

"Carson, babe? You home?"

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ilevitate
2009-02-21 07:07 pm UTC (link)

Carson was on the floor in the living room, playing tug o' war with Trinket who was growling playfully, one end of a pair of tied together socks firmly in her mouth. However when she heard Brendan's voice she dropped the sock and immediately scampered into the front room, tail wagging as she yipped and jumped up to put her paws up on Brendan's leg.

"I'm in the living room." Carson called out, offering the sock to Sparky who just looked at him as skeptically as a dog could.

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	listentomyvoice 2009-02-21 07:09 pm UTC (link)
	"Hey you!" Brendan greeted Trinket cheerfully, giving her a few pets before heading into the living room and smiling at Carson, going to sit on the couch. "Hey, big buy. How are you?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-21 07:15 pm UTC (link)
	Trinket followed Brendan back into the room and then pounced on the sock again, growling as Carson picked up playing tug o' war again with her. He glanced at Brendan and shrugged a little. Carson had been better since he'd been allowed to stay with Brendan and William. They made him feel safe. Smiling a little he glanced at Trinket. "I'm alright. You?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

listentomyvoice
2009-02-21 07:18 pm UTC (link)

"I'm good. Good. Had a busy day," He said as he settled back, crossing his legs, trying to figure out how to bring up the topic of the day.

"Well. Actually," He cleared his throat and looked at Carson, to see his reaction, "I was actually thinking about you. More specifically about...Well, you and me, big guy," He put his elbow on the arm rest, his head resting on his hand.

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ilevitate
2009-02-21 07:25 pm UTC (link)

That phrasing threw Carson a bit off guard. His cheeks colored a little bit and so many different things rushed through his mind. Was Brendan going to ask him to leave? To stop being his friend? Or was this conversation going to take a whole different turn? Really Carson wasn't sure.

"Oh?" He looked away from the game he was playing with the puppy to glance at Brendan shyly.

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listentomyvoice
2009-02-21 07:27 pm UTC (link)

Oh, but wasn't that shy glance adorable? Focus! Brendan smiled a little and nodded, "Yeah," He rubbed his hand against his face and nodded again, "Yeah, I mean...Well, I've been sort of wondering..." He didn't know how not to just ask, so...

"I was just wondering if you maybe had a crush on me, Carson?" He asked softly, raising his eyebrows a bit, trying not to look like he was judging or anything. Just curious.

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	ilevitate 2009-02-21 07:35 pm UTC (link)
	That made Carson blush all the more as he let go of the sock, which Trinket took and trotted off with. He sat there awkwardly on the floor before once more looking in Brendan's direction. "Yeah. I...do." Carson murmured rather meekly, glancing down at his lap. "It isn't a b-big deal though. I d-don't expect anything." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-21 07:36 pm UTC (link)
	"Well," Brendan was really surprised by that confirmation, frankly, "Well. I mean, really?" He raised his eyebrows, "Me?" He put his hand against his chest. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

ilevitate
2009-02-21 07:49 pm UTC (link)

That got a puzzled look from Carson who couldn't understand why Brendan was asking such a question.

"Yes, you." His eyebrows furrowed a bit, cheeks still bright red with embarrassment. "You are...sweet, and gentle and you d-don't make f-fun of me..." The man averted his eyes yet again. "And m-maybe you scared me that one time but t-thinking back on it i-it wasn't so bad." Especially compared to what Dylan had done to him.

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	listentomyvoice 2009-02-22 02:13 am UTC (link)
	Brendan blushed. Out right blushed. "Really?" He just felt so warm after that, and he patted the couch beside him, "Can you come up here and sit with me while we talk about this? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-22 12:25 pm UTC (link)
	"O-okay." Carson murmured, still blushing. The man got up and moved over to the couch, dropping down onto it beside Brendan. Finally he looked to his friend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-22 12:36 pm UTC (link)
	Once Carson was sitting beside him, Brendan looked at him with a little smile, nodding a bit, "How long have you...Well, you know, had a crush on me?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-22 12:43 pm UTC (link)
	"I d-don't really know? For a little while now, I-I guess." He once again looked down at his lap, before leaning into Brendan a little bit. "M-maybe since you held me after I was h-hit." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-22 12:48 pm UTC (link)
	"Oh, well, baby, you deserve to have someone to hold you," Brendan put his arm up and back around Carson, rubbing his shoulder, "It's okay, you know. That you...Have a crush, and all." He didn't want the man feeling ashamed, he really didn't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-22 12:55 pm UTC (link)
	"It makes me...g-gay though." He frowned a little bit. "N-not like any woman would w-want me anyway." Really as he got older and more lonely he found women weren't interested. Perhaps part of it was also the fact he found himself uninterested in women and dating in general. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-22 01:04 pm UTC (link)
	"No, babe, it doesn't make you gay. Just means you like one man, being me," Brendan shook his head before scoffing, "Hey, any woman would be lucky to have you, big guy! You're smart, sweet, cuddly! Hell, you are a fine catch!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-22 01:18 pm UTC (link)
	Carson shrugged a little and just pressed himself more into his friend's side. The man rested his head against Brendan's shoulder. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-22 01:22 pm UTC (link)
	"So...What do you want to do about this?" Brendan asked, stroking Carson's arm, leaning his head to the man's. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-22 01:32 pm UTC (link)
	"I don't know." He blushed. "You are w-with William, so it isn't l-like...we can do anything." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-22 01:34 pm UTC (link)
	"Well," Brendan took a little breath, "Actually, I mean...We sort of talked about this," He said before taking a pause and going on, "I mean, if you really do have a crush, you should be able to...pursue it?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-22 01:45 pm UTC (link)
	Carson glanced at Brendan, curious and uncertain. "W-what do you m-mean? I c-can't date y-you or anything. You have W-William. You and he are in l-love..." The man's voice was quiet. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

listentomyvoice
2009-02-22 01:51 pm UTC (link)

"Well," Brendan moved his hand to stroke at Carson's hair a bit before shrugging his other shoulder, "You live with me. You spend loads of time with me. I can trust you," Somewhat, "And I love you, too, you know. I mean, I love William in a slightly different way but...You know, he said he would be willing to," It was weird suggesting this to Carson, the innocent carson, but... "To have you in our bed. To try it out."

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	ilevitate 2009-02-22 02:02 pm UTC (link)
	"You already let me sleep in bed with you, though." Because Carson didn't quite catch what Brendan was offering. "I thought William didn't like it all that much." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-22 02:08 pm UTC (link)
	Brendan smiled a bit. It was really endearing at times how sweet and innocent Carson was, "No, baby, he doesn't mind that much, and that wasn't what I mean. I mean...Would you be interested in maybe being...more physical? With your affections?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

ilevitate
2009-02-22 02:12 pm UTC (link)

Color flared up in Carson's face as he finally realized what Brendan was asking. They wanted to have sex with him? He'd barely had sex with one person, let alone two!

"I-I don't...know." Carson swallowed and pulled his legs up onto the couch a bit, hugging them while still leaning into Brendan. "I mean, with y-you maybe but. How do you do it with...t-three people?"