InsaneJournal

Tweak says, "MMMMMMMMMMMMMM"

Carson Sanders (ilevitate) wrote in badwater_rpg,
@ 2009-02-03 21:15:00

Entry tags:

brendan prince, carson sanders

Who: Carson and Brendan
What: A rescue?
Where: Carson's place, and then Brendan's
When: Backdated to Wednesday
Rating: PG-13 probably for mentions of rape.

Carson had taken one hot bath after another until he could stand. He'd scrubbed himself pink and yet he still felt dirty. Still felt violated. When he could stand he took showers and scrubbed himself down more. It was Wednesday morning that he finally stopped showering and bathing himself. When he finally posted and asked Brendan to come and get him.

So he got dressed in the living room with the windows drawn shut because he couldn't bring himself to go into his bedroom. He didn't go into the kitchen. Sparky, while beat up, seemed relatively okay and just whined softly. Carson sat on the couch to wait for his friend and his dog sat beside him, gently licking at his owner's hand.

Ads by Project Wonderful! Your ad here, right now: $0

(Post a new comment)

listentomyvoice
2009-02-02 11:43 pm UTC (link)

Brendan was pissed off, but he tried to hide it, not wanting Carson scared. Why the Hell wouldn't his life stop sucking for like five seconds? And why was it it took great forces of violence before anyone believed him or wanted him around? He just hid all that resentment and anger and what not, however, for his concern for Carson was still there. He knocked on the man's door.

"Carson, baby? Open up, it's me."

(Reply to this) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-02 11:56 pm UTC (link)
	Sparky growled but quieted when Carson put a hand on his head. Standing the man made his way over to the door and opened it, looking at Brendan with bags under his eyes. He was tired, his shoulders slouched. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 12:13 am UTC (link)
	"Hey, big guy. Can I come in?" Brendan asked, not wanting to just leap at the guy and scare him, hugging him hard. He waited for the okay. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-03 12:15 am UTC (link)
	"Y-yes." He winced as he stuttered, licking his lips. The names Dylan had called him were still running through his head even as he stepped back. Queen. Faggot. Carson wasn't gay but Dylan nearly had him yelling he was just to get the pain to stop. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 12:17 am UTC (link)
	Brendan stepped in slowly, looking the man over, "Can I hug you?" He asked softly, having the feeling that what Dylan did was very physical and violating. And would be punished. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-03 12:25 am UTC (link)
	"Mmhm." And he made the first move, immediately putting his arms around Brendan. He buried his face in his friend's shoulder. "I'm sorry I doubted you. I'm n-not very g-good at realizing who is right and who is w-wrong." The man sniffled. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 12:32 am UTC (link)
	Brendan's arms went around Carson's waist, "It's okay, Carson," Brendan said softly, holding the man sight, "I'm sorry he did this," It was really Brendan's fault Carson was attacked, so of course he felt guilt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-03 12:33 am UTC (link)
	"N-not your fault. M-mine for e-even thinking about trusting h-him." He murmured, rubbing his cheek to Brendan's shoulder. Carson was clinging to his friend, feeling so very needy at that moment. The man's skin was still a bit red from his shower. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 12:36 am UTC (link)
	"Hey, it happens," To everyone but him, it seemed, "Do you want to come and get in the car, babe? I can take you back to my place and we can get you in some pajamas and all warm and cozy?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-03 12:42 am UTC (link)
	"Sparky can come, right? D-Dylan kicked him." He sniffled and stood up, wiping his eyes, moving to grab his dog's leash. "Here boy." Carson coo'ed softly, attaching the leash to the collar. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 12:47 am UTC (link)
	"Of course!" Brendan nodded, hand on the man's arm as he waited for him to be ready, "Did you need anything here before we headed back to my place?" He would come back to get things, sure, if Carson let him leave him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-03 12:48 am UTC (link)
	"N-no. I want to b-buy new clothes." Mostly he didn't want to go into his bedroom where there was still a pile of blood stained sheets on the floor. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 12:51 am UTC (link)
	"Oookay," Brendan nodded, "Alright. How about we get you to my place, get you settled, and we can get you new clothes later, okay?" He said, rubbing Carson's arm. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-03 12:56 am UTC (link)
	"Okay. I c-can probably fit into s-some of William's clothes?" He offered a weak smile. "If he'll let me...borrow them." Which William probably would because even he could have sympathy for a shattered man. Stepping outside, with Sparky at his heels Carson walked quickly to the car. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

listentomyvoice
2009-02-03 01:00 am UTC (link)

"He will," Which William probably would because who cared what he thought, Brendan was taking the clothes for Carson anyway. He figured William would have sympathy, and if not he'd be short a pair of pajamas anyway. Even if Carson had pretty much betrayed Brendan like William had, believing Dylan over him, ignoring his calls, whatever, he was still Brendan's friend. Hell, if he still loved William after all the man did, of course he still loved Carson.

He unlocked the car for when Carson reached it and came around to get in as quick as he could, making sure Carson buckled up before he nodded and pulled off, heading for his house.

"You okay, big guy? This alright?"

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

okay I lied, Alissa caught me up in something

ilevitate
2009-02-03 01:04 am UTC (link)

"This is fine, Brendan." He'd managed to complete a sentence without stuttering! It was a miracle. "Thank you." Even though the man was staring down at his lap. "I d-didn't believe him over you, Brendan." The man murmured after a moment. "I was just t-trying to figure out something. I had to think. I don't process things like this as f-fast as maybe I should." Obviously he was wracked with guilt, feeling that he'd brought the attack upon himself.

It was karma getting him back for leaving Brendan.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	hah aw listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 01:07 am UTC (link)
	"It's fine, Carson, really," Not really, but if Brendan had learned anything over the last few months it was to just take it and go with it, and do it well, "I understand," Again, not really, but he was convincing anyway. "You're okay now, though, alright? You're safe," He said, eyes on the road. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	you think you'll be able to app Cal by next Sunday? ilevitate 2009-02-03 01:10 am UTC (link)
	"You are angry with my aren't you." Brendan sounded sincere but how could the man be okay after what he'd done? "I don't know how you can f-forgive me, Brendan. I don't d-deserve a friend like you." He didn't deserve friends period and sniffled, wiping at his eyes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	I think so listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 01:12 am UTC (link)
	"I'm not angry with you," Brendan sighed, shaking his head. The world, sure, but Carson...Well, he was miffed, but he wasn't going to say that, "And it isn't about deserving. You have me. So," He turned down his street, shrugging one shoulder as he drove, "It's okay, babe." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Awesome 'cause Gideon has all these new patients and wants Cal sobad because it is tiring. ilevitate 2009-02-03 01:14 am UTC (link)
	"Its not okay." Carson mumbled, looking out the window with sorrowful eyes. "You are m-my only real friend and to even think for a moment I doubted you..." He let his head thump against the window. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	aw. And now I am going to bed, even if you are not :P listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 01:17 am UTC (link)
	Brendan was trying his best not to snap, truly he was, but his hands gripped the wheel tightly as he pulled into the driveway at his house. "Well, everyone is doing it, Carson, so it really is in fashion, okay?" He ground out finally as he stopped the car and turned it off, getting out and walking around to Carson's door, "Come on, big guy." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Haha I'm going to bed in 10 anyway, so night! Sleep well.

ilevitate
2009-02-03 01:21 am UTC (link)

The tone of voice was enough to get him going and the man broke down, curling up as best he could even with the seat belt on. He deserved it. He deserved to be raped. He deserved the blood and the pain and the renewed feeling of constant fear. Carson deserved to hear Dylan's voice in his head and he sobbed, his body trembling terribly.

"I'm s-s-so-so sorry Brendan." The man practically wailed through his tears. "I s-should have let him strangle me."

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Thanks!

listentomyvoice
2009-02-03 01:23 am UTC (link)

Brendan scowled. This was just...Well, this was his life now. He opened Carson's door and got down by the man, squatting.

"Hey, big guy, no, calm down. No. You shouldn't have let him strangle you, I'd miss you too much, okay? So no. Alright?" He put his hand on Carson's shoulder, "I'm sorry for snapping, okay? I'm just a bit tense right now," Right the-last-few-months, really.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ilevitate 2009-02-03 01:28 am UTC (link)
	"I'm j-just as bad as," a choked sob, "as Dylan. And William. They hurt you and n-n-now I've h-hurt you when you were the only p-person who cared." Carson was shaking all the more and sounded as if he was having trouble breathing. "I d-d-deserve to d-die." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-02-03 01:30 am UTC (link)
	"Oh, baby, come on," Brendan scoffed, "You couldn't be as bad as them if you tried," Brendan shook his head and rubbed the man's shoulder, "Come on. Calm down," He was hurt, sure, but he wasn't going to go on about it when Carson was so obviously upset and had been hurt. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)