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Tweak says, "its totally not you, its me!"

William Anthony Biggs-Turner (britishice) wrote in badwater_rpg,
@ 2009-01-22 10:14:00

Entry tags:

brendan prince, january, william biggs-turner

Who: Brendan and William
What: William is helpless
Where: Their place
When: Thursday morning
Rating: PG-13

After being stabbed William found he had a greater respect for those who were paralyzed from the waist down. Thanks to the knife damaging some spinal membrane that would take a while to heal William had found he couldn't feel anything from his hips down except, surprisingly, his genitals. Not that they were useful or anything at that point. Every day he went into the hospital for his physical therapy. The therapist would work his legs, moving them, keeping them in shape and sometimes William could feel them start to tingle before they went dead again. He was healing, just very slowly.

Wednesdays PT had been especially hard on him, leaving him frustrated and ready to just go home and fall asleep which he did after Brendan helped him bathe. All night he twisted and turned the best he could while asleep, plagued with nightmares about dying, or about never being able to move again. About Brendan leaving him because he couldn't walk or because the other man had to do something gross like help William onto the toilet. So when he woke up Thursday morning he just lay there and stared at the ceiling, bags under his eyes, finding himself extremely tired.

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listentomyvoice
2009-01-23 03:29 pm UTC (link)

Brendan had been dealing alright with what was happening. He hadn't really had much comment on it, since he knew if he did speak about it, he'd probably just upset William and himself. William's stabbing was just too much of an emotional thing for him to speak about, so he didn't. And he still hadn't told William about what he had done to Dylan, so he was also hiding that, thinking about it off and on the last few days.

He had been sleeping pretty crappily, too, but that was mainly out of worry for William. So when William woke up, Brendan was already awake, laying at the man's side and noticing his eyes open.

"Mornin'," He said groggily, yawning once as his hand went to the man's chest to give a little rub.

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	britishice 2009-01-23 05:12 pm UTC (link)
	William's hand moved to rest on Brendan's where it was on his chest and he closed his eyes, frowning a little. "I don't like this." He mumbled, his own voice a bit rough with sleep. "I actually rather hate it, to be honest. Not being able...to move." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-01-23 05:20 pm UTC (link)
	"I didn't think you were loving it, no," Brendan murmured, moving to snuggle into William's side, "Did you want to get up now?" He asked. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

britishice
2009-01-23 06:48 pm UTC (link)

Tilting his head he pressed a kiss to his lover's forehead, eyes still closed. He wasn't really sure if he wanted to get up right that second, even though he had to pee. Really it was humiliating to have his lover help him out of his wheel chair onto the toilet, and then help him back. William was a strong minded man and every time he was helped there was a slash to his ego.

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	listentomyvoice 2009-01-23 06:52 pm UTC (link)
	Brendan knew it was hard on William, but he didn't know what to do for him besides support him, so he just sat up a bit, "Okay, I gotta pee, so since I'm heading that way, want to tag along?" He figured if he didn't make it all about William, he could make it better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	britishice 2009-01-23 06:55 pm UTC (link)
	"Sure, because it is my life's dream to watch you pee." However there was gratitude in his eyes as he looked at his lover, before glancing away. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-01-23 07:04 pm UTC (link)
	"Then call me your fairy god fuck, because I'm here to make your dreams come true!" Brendan grinned as he got up out of bed, getting the wheel chair for William all lined up and what not before waiting for the man to sit up before offering his help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	britishice 2009-01-23 07:09 pm UTC (link)
	He pulled himself up into a sitting position, thankfully already near the edge of the bed. Turning his back to Brendan he waited for the man to pull him into the chair. "My bandages probably...need to be changed too." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-01-23 07:12 pm UTC (link)
	"After I piss, slim. My bladder has priorities!" Brendan said as he bent to help William up, putting him in the chair and giving a nod as he walked around the back of it, pushing them towards the bathroom without complaint. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	britishice 2009-01-23 07:16 pm UTC (link)
	"I can get my own wheelchair, you know." But he was still a big groggy and just wanted to pee. Once they got to the bathroom he was willing to wait for Brendan to do his business first. As he tried every time, William pushed down at his boxers but couldn't lift his hips to get them off. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

listentomyvoice
2009-01-23 07:23 pm UTC (link)

"Yeah, but I like pushing it, so shut up, I'm doing it," Brendan shrugged, getting them in the room. He did his own business first so that William wouldn't think he was being all noble and putting him first-even if he wanted to. That done, he washed his hands then looked at William, "Okay, slim, let's do this," And he helped the man up, getting him steady for a moment to push down his boxers before setting him on the toilet ever so carefully, since there were parts of William Brendan enjoyed a good deal and did not want to injure, "There. I'm going to go get a sweater on, it's freezing," Aka leave him be for a moment to pee and do his business without someone lurking over him. Brendan was surprisingly good at caring for someone who was ashamed of what had happened to them. One could question it, but he probably wouldn't reply.

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	britishice 2009-01-23 07:29 pm UTC (link)
	Once on the toilet, William did his own business, using the hand sanitizer he'd put on the toilet lid after his accident. It was easier than trying to wash his hands in the sink, anyway. Bending down he pulled his boxers back up as far as he could get them before waiting for Brendan. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-01-23 07:32 pm UTC (link)
	He appeared not a few seconds after the man was done, wearing a hoody, his hair all the more messy for tugging it on, "Okay, come on," He helped William up, getting him situated pants-wise before putting him back down on the wheel chair, "Alright. So, what did you wanna do today, anyway?" He asked as he wheeled William out of the bathroom. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	britishice 2009-01-23 07:36 pm UTC (link)
	"I don't really want to do anything." William hadn't really gone outside since the accident. Not even into the backyard to watch Trinket as she sniffed around for a place to go to the bathroom. "I'm fine just...staying home and writing." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-01-23 07:49 pm UTC (link)
	"Well, I was thinking of going for a walk later with Trinket if you'd like to come?" Brendan tried now and again to get William to come out and play, but he had sort of given up on those since it was sort of failing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	britishice 2009-01-23 08:15 pm UTC (link)
	"I'm fine." William replied, shaking his head. "Still need to change my bandages." They were feeling uncomfortable and it was a way to redirect the conversation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

listentomyvoice
2009-01-23 08:17 pm UTC (link)

"Alright, well, get back on the bed," He said, as if he wasn't the one steering the man to the bed, moving around the front, aiding him get up, and putting him down. As if William did that all himself.

"I'll get some, okay?" He was going back to the bathroom then, "Lay back," He called from the room before coming back. This was Brendan Prince, who, when in L.A., would wear a face mask when he brought soup to his friends with colds. Now getting ready to redress a gross wound. It said a lot.

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britishice
2009-01-23 08:25 pm UTC (link)

William was laid out on his stomach, the bandage obvious against his lover back where he'd been stabbed. He closed his eyes and just laid there, shivering a little since he was shirtless. Since the stabbing he'd felt rather apathetic toward the world. He was almost done with his third book, which was nice, but there was just something about not being able to move that irked him.

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	listentomyvoice 2009-01-23 08:38 pm UTC (link)
	Brendan saw to undressing, cleaning, and redressing the wound before he rubbed William's upper back and stepped back, going to throw the things in the garbage and put away the other bandages before walking back in. "so, want some coffee? Something to eat?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	britishice 2009-01-23 08:40 pm UTC (link)
	William did his best not to grimace as his wound was cared for and after the bandage had been changed he felt a bit weak. When Brendan came back in he glanced at his lover tiredly. "Coffee, I suppose. Or tea." Really he wasn't very hungry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

listentomyvoice
2009-01-23 08:43 pm UTC (link)

"Tea? Okay," Brendan gave William a kiss, "I'll be right back, okay? Don't get too bored without me," He patted William's arm before heading down to the kitchen, his face just going blank as he went along. He was tired. He was weary. And he was making that tea and then going back upstairs to sit with William and make sure he was okay. Because he loved the man. Plain and simple.

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	britishice 2009-01-23 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	Trinket hadn't been getting the attention she'd wanted the past few days, so when she saw Brendan walking into the kitchen the puppy stood up and padded over to him. Sitting at his feet she whined, ears going back, trying to look cute so he'd consider her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

listentomyvoice
2009-01-23 08:52 pm UTC (link)

Brendan put the kettle on before he looked down at Trinket and bent to scoop her up, giving her a big hug before putting her back down and giving her a few pets, "Sorry we've been so busy, pup," He said to the dog, sighing, "But your masters have had a crazy little while. Emphasis on crazy, for this master," He rubbed the dog's ears, "I'll make it up to you. And to Frank."

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	britishice 2009-01-23 09:02 pm UTC (link)
	The puppy whined as she was picked up, licking at Brendan's face, whining against as she was put down. Though her tail was wagging as she was petted, looking straight at Brendan. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	listentomyvoice 2009-01-23 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	"Yeah, I know. I'll take you for a walk later once William is settled in writing, okay? Maybe we'll go see Carson for a bit," He stood up after a moment before going to put some food in Trinket's bowl, doing the same for Frank. Getting everyone seen to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)