callisto24 (callisto24) wrote in backupcopythat, @ 2008-05-23 16:40:00 |
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Entry tags: | 24, english, fanfiction, past and future |
past and future, part 5
Title: past and future, V
author: callisto24
charakters: Jack, Tony, Chase, Kim
category: drama, angst, m/m slash
theme: past Season 3, Jack and Chase share some moments
rating: NC-17
warnings: drugs, graphic slash, smut - don’t like it, don’t read it! not my native language- corrections always welcome;)
disclaimer: nothing belongs to me, no money made ....
* * *
The sun was burning down on him. Jack could feel it scorching his skin. Squinting against the brightness he looked up, his heart pounding hard in his chest. The sweat covered him, running in streams down his glowing body, when the flames seemed to fall from the sky, causing him to press his eyes shut, to wince in agony.
He was scared to open his eyes again, but couldn ‘ t prevent to see. His tongue was so thick that the little air he managed to suck in tasted like rotten flesh making him choke.
He bent forward, lost balance and fell hard on his knees, when suddenly the former merciless shining light faded away, left him alone in inpenetrable darkness. He screamed in fear, desperately reached out for help, when a face out of hell was looming over him. He started shuddering, abruptly freezing, though trapped in purgatory, still whimpering in pain.
“Shh... it ‘ s all over. You ‘ re not alone, I ‘ ve got you... .”
Chase bent over the helplessly trembling figure and drew him close in a protective embrace. Jack was shaking uncontrollably, but the initial frenzy slowly faded. Chase continued the soothing litany of words, stroked the head resting against his shoulder and softly kissed the damp temple. After a moment Jack responded, slid his arms around the younger man and rested in the touch.
Finally he pulled back, wiped his forehead with shivering hands and cleared his throat.
“It ‘ s ok, Chase. Just a nightmare, you can leave now.”
Chase looked worried. “No need to play the hero in here, Jack. I know what you ‘ re going through.”
“Maybe you do, but I ‘ m used to handle stuff like that.”
“Yeah, you ‘ re doing really great.”
“Shut up. I hadn ‘ t asked you to stay here and see this. You insisted!”
“I did, and I would do it again, believe me!”
“I do,” Jack sighed, defeated. “You ‘ re a stubborn bastard.”
“Just like you.”
Chase gained no smile. Instead Jacks skin coloured grey and he tried to push him away, rising quickly. Chase supported him on his hasty way to the bathroom, wiped his face clean and led him to bed again when he had finished retching. Jack sank down at the head of it, pulled his knees up and leant against the wall.
“Should I call Makeba?”
“No, I ‘ m doing fine. Dr. White has enough to do covering my withdrawals attempts.”
“Hey, she ‘ s done a good job, you ‘ re almost through.”
“What I said. So go back to your family, before they ‘ ll start to wonder.”
“They aren ‘ t wondering. Sharon is on our side, officially I ‘ m with her in Washington, while Jasmin had arrived yesterday to help with Angela. Somehow she seems to replace me really perfectly.”
He paused a moment. “Besides you have to be ready to go to CTU tomorrow, they know, that no kind of cold would beat you longer than a few days.”
“I will go, there ‘ s something to do for me.”
Chase watched him concerned. “That ‘ s not the time for trying any revenge. Won ‘ t help Tony, but put you into trouble.”
Jack clutched his stomach and coughed silently before he answered. “What do you think, why I agreed to this?” His voice grew lower, when he went on. “I can see no reason for this, beside one. I won ‘ t let them get away with it, no chance to do so.”
Chase shook his head. “I don ‘ t know, Jack. It might be bigger than we expect. Some things are out of our control.”
Jack looked up at him, his eyes dark and white in the pale face. “That ‘ s why I have to try.”
Chase glanced back at him, shadows flying over his handsome features, his green eyes boring into the ones of the sitting man. “You can ‘ t succeed without CTU support.”
“Shouldn ‘ t be a problem.”
“Well, we ‘ ll see. Take care of yourself now.” He leant forward and softly stroke Jacks hair, who immediately pulled back as if in shock.
“What?”
“No Chase, keep this for Kim!”
“Jack, I... .”
“No, leave it!”
“I..., I only want to... .”
“I know, and I appreciate you trying to help.” Jack turned his face away, stared attentively at the thick curtains, covering the windows.
“Jack, I ‘ m as confused as you.”
“I ‘ m not confused, Chase.” Jack still stared at the same place, a slight and bitter smile playing across his lips.
“What had happened between us... .”
“... meant nothing, Chase.” Jack closed his eyes, leant his head back. “I ‘ m sorry for this, really, really sorry, it was one of the biggest mistakes in my life, and I don ‘ t want it to have any consequences on Kim or... you.”
“Jack, it had been... .”
“Listen to me Chase. I won ‘ t say it again. I fucked up and probably I won ‘ t get a grip on my life ever again. But one thing I know for sure.”
He let out a long breathe, while Chase felt this big lump in his throat, hurting him deeply inside, causing the tears burn behind his eyes. Jacks voice became softer, when he admitted, what he had never admitted to anyone.
“Truth is I love Tony and this love won ‘ t go away no matter what he says or does or where he lives. This far I know myself.” He sighed again. “I ‘ ve felt like this for once in my life before, and I know that I won ‘ t be free from this feeling until the day one of us will die. And it ‘ s not fair to play games with anyone else. I ‘ ve done it, I probably will do it, but I don ‘ t want to use you for this.”
“Jack,” Chases voice sounded hoarsely to himself. “Please! You won ‘ t use me... never.”
The other man finally looked at him. “I did, and I would do it again, if I ‘ m not able to stop myself. For your sake.”
“Jack!”
“And for mine,” he added quietly closing his eyes again. “So would you please listen to me for once and understand, that you have to go.”
Silence grew between them, when Chase searched for words in vain, while sorrow filled him. Not that he hadn ‘ t known, though to hear Jacks rejection in these clear words, made his heart ache and his legs tumble, when suddenly exhaustion gripped him in a powerful effort and he couldn ‘ t prevent a sob. He felt, that he wasn ‘ t ready here, that there was something left to do or to say, but he couldn ‘ t see what it was. He only felt the devouring frustration engulfing him like blinding darkness and he felt forced to turn around and to go, without leaving anything but his grief in this rooms. He stopped in front of the door, told himself to stay strong for him once more, but he couldn ‘ t.
Jack heard the door shut, and finally let the tears stream down his face, crying for Tony, crying for Chase, crying for his lost love until he had no tears left anymore, until his sorrow lulled him into sleep.
* * * * *
“Chase?”
“Jack!”
“I... I don ‘ t wanna disturb you, I wanted to talk to Kim.”
Chase paused, absent mindly turning the phone in his hand before he spoke again.
“She isn ‘ t there. Shall I tell her to call back.”
Now it was Jack turn to remain silent for a minute, while he weighed his options.
“No, better I ‘ ll try it later again.”
The silence hang between them, caused an uncomfortable feeling in Chases stomach. Obviously Jack wasn ‘ t ready to hang up, but on the other hand, he couldn ‘ t imagine what the man might have in his mind. Finally Jack cleared his throat, interrupting his thoughts.
“I ‘ m sorry, Chase, for what I had said and done, I never wanted... it... .”
Chase wasn ‘ t used to his former partner searching for words, so confusion mixed with worry, when he softly started to help him out. “Jack! Anything happened?”
“No... yes... ,it ‘ s ... I don ‘ t want to lay this on you, it ‘ s somehow... maybe... .”
“Are you at home?”
Chase nearly thought Jack would end the conversation, when he heard his breathing quickening.
“No.”
“Then I ‘ ll meet you. Where are you?”
“Chase, I only wanted to talk to Kim.”
“You can do it later. She ‘ s on an excursion with Jasmin and Angela. Could last a while.”
For a moment he heard nothing, but then a sigh appeared on his side of the wire.
“I hate to say it, but... yes... please. Would you come? I ‘ m at the bar in... you know where.”
“Damnit!” Chase threw the phone on the couch, grapped his keys and hurried out of the house. Of course he knew, where Jack was, and he hoped, he would arrive soon enough to prevent him from doing something stupid.
A race through the city was followed by the fast entering of the place, he had hoped, he ‘ d never had to see again.
Immediately he discovered Jack, one of the very few guests at this time of the day, sitting alone on the higher stool in front of an empty glass, burying his head in his hands. He didn ‘ t noticed his former partners arrival, at least it seemed so to the younger man. Chase took a seat next to him, answered the unfriendly gaze of the bartender by ordering two drinks and then slightly touched Jacks shoulder. Jacks head shot up and he stared at Chase, who couldn ‘ t make out if it was anger or fear what crossed his features.
“Give it to me!”
Jack glanced at him without saying a word.
“Jack! I won ‘ t repeat it!”
Looking back to his miraculously filled glass again, Jack nodded in the direction of his pocket.
Feeling awkward Chase reached for it and pulled out the expected small plastic bag, hiding it hastily in his own jacket. Relieved he watched the other man. “You hadn ‘ t, had you?”
“No,” Jack shook his head and stroke his hair back. He waited a moment before he went on.
“Thanks for coming, Chase, I just had a moment...of weakness.”
Chases gaze sank on his untouched glass and he tried to calm down, before he decided to answer. “I ‘ m glad, you called! Now tell me, for heavens sake, what ‘ s going on?”
He hadn ‘ t meant to become angry, but the thought of how easy Jack would be able to return to his deadly habit, mixed with the well known pounding of his heart, which he couldn ‘ t prevent to beat faster and wilder as usually, whenever he was feeling Jack near him, made his blood boil and he sensed the weird temptation to lash out at the other man.
For the first time, Jack really turned to him and met his eyes, revealing Chases feelings clearer than any word could do. He took a deep breath and finally spoke. “I called to tell Kim, that Erin Driscoll had fired me and that I made the decision to leave the town. I wanted to hear, what she would think about it.”
“What?” Chase startled. “She had... why?”
A bitter smile disappeared as fast as it had reached Jacks lips. “You know why and to be honest, I can ‘ t blame her.”
“And... and... what are your plans now?”
Jack shrugged. “There are offers, I... I only have to decide. Somehow... .”
“Let ‘ s go!” Chase suggested. “I don ‘ t know when Kim might return, but you can wait for her and hear her opinion then.”
Jack nodded, slipped from the stool, left some notes on the counter and followed Chase silently.
“I drive! Don ‘ t know how many drinks you already had.”
“Christ, I won ‘ t miss you being in command,” Jack admitted, when they drove.
Chase smiled a small smile. ”I ‘ m not enjoying it, believe me!”
“Bullshit! You love it.”
Chase kept his eyes on the street, when he added low: “You really don ‘ t know me.”
“Probably,” Jack answered after a while, lost in his thoughts, when they arrived.
“When do you think she will return?” Jack asked suddenly doubting if this would be the right time to face her with his news. Above all, she might smell the alcohol, which wouldn ‘ t make the discussion easier.
“Look, Chase... ,” he started, unsure about how to continue, when the younger man dragged him on the couch.
“Now I want to know. You owe me that much. What brought you to ... you can ‘ t tell me it ‘ s because CTU fired you. There must be something else behind... ,” Chase hastily spat out.
“I told you, I had a weak moment... .”
“Yes... ,”Chase took a deep breath. “Let me guess! It ‘ s all about Tony. Am I right? You don ‘ t want to leave him.”
“No, “ Jack shook his head. “I don ‘ t want to leave him, that ‘ s right, but it would turn out to be the best solution for all of us.” He stared blankly out of the window, watched the grey clouds passing by, leaving hints of an upcoming storm.
“Then, what... ?” Chase stopped, not knowing anymore what to say. The wind howled through the streets making them shiver, turning the normally bright city into an unknown, eerie territory. They both winced when the phone rang shrill in the sudden silence, followed by the sound of thunder in the distance.
After a minute of talking Chase returned, regarding the darkness crawling over the sky. “I still can ‘ t believe how fast a thundersturm can appear in this part of the country.”
“Kim?”
Chase nodded. “They ‘ re caught in the middle of this.” He shook his head watching the trees being bowed down by the force of the wind.
“They are safe, there,” he responded to a questioning glance of Jack. “Visiting a mall, thinking about introducing Angela to the world of cinema... they just plan to return later.”
“Maybe that ‘ s for the best.” Jack stood up determined. “I will talk to her tomorrow.”
“No,” Chase grabbed his arm. “I want to hear it now. What is it with you and Tony?”
Jack pulled away, turning back to the window, staring outside, without seeing anything consciously. Chase approached him from behind, raising his hands, not daring to touch him, but not having the strength to stay away.
“Please, tell me,” he whispered. “You won ‘ t hurt me, you can ‘ t.”
* * * * *
A flash of lightning appeared in the sky, enlightened the upcoming blackness, visible proof for the electricity in the air. For a moment which seemed to last an eternity the world stood still until finally thunder started its deep growl.
Jack slowly turned around, met the emerald green gaze, dropping from his eyes to the delicate curved lips. Chase watched them move in a silent attempt to speak, he suddenly ached to kiss them, to taste them again, his desire more overwhelming than he ‘ d ever dreamed of.
And when he saw his need mirrored in the eyes of the other man, he felt sweat breaking out, dripping down his neck, wetting his shirt. He had to be close to him, right now, and before one of them had the time to think about it, Chase sank on his knees, his hot hands going around Jacks waist, pressing himself as close as possible.
“Damn you!” Jack breathed as he couldn ‘ t prevent his own arms wrapping around the other mans shoulders, his fingers coming up at last tangling in Chases hair. Need flared up and Jack shuddered, sensing Chase would be aware of it soon. His body reacted without hesitation to the touch and Jack cursed the smile he anticipated to spread on the younger ones face. The words froze in his throat, as his body stayed frozen in the unusual embrace.
Chases blood rushed through his veins, when he waited for resistance, steeled himself for Jack to fight, pulling himself even tighter to the man. But resistance didn ‘ t happen. On the contrary he felt Jack respond, his fingers in his hair, his flesh already hardened in his trousers.
He turned his head up, meeting these clear blue eyes expressing a forlornness, they usually managed to hide, begging for what he would never put in words. And he melted in the sight, hoarsely whispering pleas neither Jack nor he would ever remember, when his long fingers reached for the buckle of Jacks belt, undid it with amazingly skilful movements regarding the fact, that one of his hands still was handicapped by a bandage. The fingers worked on, unbuttoning the top of the pants, slowly unzipping them until they slid down Jacks slim legs, finally came to rest in a pool around his feet. Chase lost no time nuzzling the fabric of Jacks briefs, trying to pull them down with his teeth. Jacks hands came up, but Chase grasped his wrists, immobilizing them, while he used his mouth to free the object of his desire. Though in a strange submissive position, he was the one in control here, calling the shots.
Jacks cock stood free, moving slightly, when Chase studied it, pleased with what he saw. “Let me comfort you,” he murmured hoarsely, before he licked his lips until they gleamed with moisture and leant forward touching the drop already formed at the tip of Jacks penis with his tongue.
“Please... .” Jack finally found his voice, when his body trembled, his blood throbbed with desire. Chase opened his lips, moved closer.
Jack thought he would lose his mind entirely, when each rational thought vanished and left him desperately longing for physical contact, desperately longing for this mans touch, for this mans mouth and tongue.
Slowly Chase took him all the way in, obviously experienced in the matter. He pulled back, then stimulated the flaming nerves by placing wet kisses, by licking and then again sucking him in, demanding everything, receiving everything, when the oher man thrusted back frantically.
Jack staggered, his legs parted involuntary and Chase released the grip he had on Jacks wrists, his hands grasping Jacks hips, kneading them while he went on taking possession of the other mans manhood. The blond couldn ‘ t hold back a moan, couldn ‘ t resist to grip the younger mans head trying to influence the rhythm, but he failed, when a slender finger suddenly pressed at the opening of his body, circling playfully around, taking possession of him once more, sliding inside, incredibly deep. He bore down on the invader, the sensations running through his body driving him over the edge. He clasped at the damp head in front of him, felt the hot lips before he exploded, emitting a strangled cry when Chase swallowed it all, drained him completely until Jack collapsed into the comforting arms. Arms that caught him lovingly, held him tight near the strong chest, stroke the soft hair, until his breathing slowed down, until his body went limp, his panting faded and he could form words again.
“You ‘ re crazy,” he hissed. “You... we weren ‘ t safe.”
Chase only kissed his temple in response. “Life is a risk,” he murmured. “Don ‘ t tell me you ‘ re always taking care.” He paused and added. “I ‘ ve seen your files, you are tested regularly, and I... , I ‘ m acting responsible, too. Kim and I... ,before... .” He stopped watching the blue eyes darken in a moment, felt Jacks body stiffen in his embrace. In a hasty try to distract his lover he hungrily claimed his mouth in a kiss, gave in to the passion, knowing he would make him taste his own fluid with the contact. Short resistance broke down soon, when Chase urged this mouth to open up to his, tried to make this sensuous lips a part of him, when he felt his own hardness push painfully against the inside of his jeans.
All thought died, when Jack was devoured by the contakt, lips on lips, tongue against tongue, fighting, dancing, pushing everything away, besides the longing for physical closeness. Jack gripped his partners strong shoulders, guiding the other man on top of him. He gasped at the feel of all that weight covering him, the heat inside him increased when their groins were crushed together. The rock hard shaft pressed intimately tight against his own reawakening member. Chases mouth and hands caressed him with patience, the former urgency made way for tender , soft movements and touches, freeing him slowly from the clothes he still weared.
Soon squirming beneath him, Jack approached the bulge in Chases Jeans, stroking it slightly, cupping and squeezing it until the other man moaned against his mouth, rised to get rid of the bothering material. Jacks shivering fingers pulled down whatever still dared to part them, went down first, moved up then to rip the shirt open, to let his hands slide over the chest, come around the neck and finally glide downwards again. Thousand sparkles glistened in Chases eyes, when he pulled free, opened a nearby drawer and grabbed the lube, quickly taking a certain amount before he again settled on top of the blond. Jacks legs parted, when Chase started a rocking motion, rubbing his body against the smaller one, suddenly stopped, when Jack pulled his knees up with a suppressed sigh. He bent down for a further kiss, moving his lips over the soft skin, until he reached the other mans ear. “I know what you want.” He whispered breathlessly. “You ‘ re mine in this, only mine.” Jack shuddered at the possessive note in his voice, but in the next moment started whimpering, when he felt lifted, when coated fingers slipped between his thighs, worked up inside him, digging, pushing, stretching him until he couldn ‘ t help but begging for more. Chase prepared himself in an instant, raised the other ones lower body again, before he centered his huge cock and plunged straight into him. The entry went on until he was buried completely, looking down on Jack, tears building in the corners of his eyes. He was big, but Jack was adjusting soon, encouraging Chase by giving him an internal squeeze. He felt the others cock pulse, before Chase finally began thrusting and Jack arched his back, when his partners length found that special place deep inside of him. Each move against the prostata made his senses explode, shot burning flames through his insides. A slave to the pleasure Jack welcomed everything he was offered.
Chase rode him like an expert, he took all he wanted and more, grunting and cursing seeking for completion. He couldn ‘ t get deep enough, Jack couldn ‘ t accept enough ,of what his lover had to give. With a final incoherent groan Chase froze above him. Same moment Jack cried out when his body erupted a second time, sending the warm seed over his own chest and their connected bodies until he was spent in delight. Chase was still coming inside him, seeming to give him everything he owned without holding back.
Jack felt he was glowing, felt finally Chases cock soften and slip out, opened his arms and dragged the other man into his embrace, into which Chase settled gratefully. Both were still trembling, shaking from the shared ecstasy.
“I ‘ ve never..., never... .” Chase panted, his chest heaving. Jack pulled him closer absent mindly stroking the sweaty back.
His thoughts wandered, when he surroundings came into his mind again, when he noticed the sounds of thunder and the raindrops falling on the roof, creating a rhythm, they both weren ‘ t able to hear until now.
And the rain outside soaked the dark hair and the clothes, weared by the man, who stood there, in front of the window, unable to move, unable to untie his gaze from the szenery presenting to him.
* * * * *
Water dripped down his face, intruding into his eyes, making him blink, though he still remained blind. The rain rushed over him, his force increasing, soaking him from head to toe, until he shivered. A flash of lightning suddenly woke him up from his rigidity and before the thunder started to bark again, he regained control over his body, retreating, leaving the place, where he had stood for what had seemed to be an eternity, though it probably hadn ‘ t been half a minute. He dragged his hood over his head though it wouldn ‘ t make a difference anymore, feeling more protected by the useless try to hide his face.
He returned to his car, still standing where he had left it, what probably had been years ago.
Sitting in his wet clothes inside the metal cage, hearing the rain drum loud enough to paralyze his senses, he allowed himself to bend forward and to lay his head against the wheel.
The ache in his heart was a surprise, more the extent of the pain, he hadn ‘ t expected. He ‘ d never thought about Jack seeking for comfort in the arms of Chase and the thought same time hurt and drove him wild. Suddenly he remembered the strange glances, the young man had thrown at him repeatedly, the long looks up to his office, right after Jack had left it and the sometimes nearly rude manner, he had shown approaching him. He must have known. All the time, maybe from the first day on. And then... . Tonys head shot up. How long might they be together like this. Hadn ‘ t looked like their first encounter, hadn ‘ t looked like they would share any restrictions, feelings of guilt or doubts. And what about Kim? Tony snorted at the thought of how he had tortured himself with the thought about his wife, with the question how it had been possible for him to betray her, how he could live with the knowledge, that his longing for Jack always would be stronger, always would win over his futile attempts to remain faithful.
And Jack? He had been so understanding, moving away at once, when he had felt his discomfort. Probably without hesitation making his way to his young lover, pleading Chase to fuck him senseless. Tony closed his eyes, tried to prevent the images rising in front of them. Jack and Chase at CTU, at Jacks apartment, in Jacks bed. Everything started to make sense now. He shivered again, suddenly aware of the wetness in his face, when its coldness mixed with the hot tears streaming from his eyes.
* * * * *
Chase decided to rise without losing hold of the other man, dragging him up on to the couch where they snuggled closer. Jack shut his eyes in obvious exhaustion.
When Chase felt him shiver, he put a cover around them continuously caressing the smooth skin, enjoying the softness above the hard muscles. He nuzzled against Jacks throat, started to place small kisses on each delicious point he could reach, licking with devotion, enjoying the taste of the man, bathing in the smell of their sex.
He sucked on his earlobe receiving a shudder from the blond, causing his heart jump in his chest.
“Jack,” he mumbled, searching the other mans mouth, met the already kiss-bruised lips with new discovered tenderness, brushing slightly over them, letting his tongue move in circles around the softness, before he carefully lowered his own, allowing them to touch.
Jacks eyes remained closed though Chase could tell by the deepening of his breathe, that he was aware of his attentions. Swollen lips opened sooner than expected and Chase took his time exploring the sweet mouth willingly opening to his.
Chases fingers slid down Jacks back, moved up his sides, the bandage on his left hand sending a tickling through his nerves, before he pulled him even closer with one arm, while his right hand moved to Jacks chest, softly playing with his nipples, causing a sigh from the smaller man. Chase drank Jacks breath, sucked the air from his lungs until his mind whirled and he had to break for air. He rested against the side of the couch shifting slightly, pulling Jack between his legs, cuddling him with arms and knees.
Jack leant his head back against the younger mans shoulder, breathing heavily, still lost in the sensations, when Chase started the soft petting again, fingers dancing down the belly, caressing the flat stomach, dipping into the navel, before they went deeper.
“Chase,” Jack gasped. “You can ‘ t tell me you hadn ‘ t enough yet.”
Chase grinned, let his fingers wander featherly up and down the flat shaft, before he tenderly explored its circumsized shape, gripped it properly, began with rhythmic strokes, touches up and down the whole length.
“Chase!”
“Will never have enough from you,” he whispered breathlessly feeling his own member awaken again, rising, pressing against the small butt in his lap. He moved together with the strokes, making Jack feel his increasing arousal, letting him sense how his cock came to full hardness again, while he gently discovered each inch of the worshipped penis, stimulated the used flesh, until it unbelievably filled once more and caused Jack sucking the air around him in desperately, while his hips started to move frantically, rocking backwards , making Chase moan, while he quickened the pace of his strokes.
“What are you doing to me?” Jack gasped.
“I ‘ m gonna take you right to heaven,” Chase whispered hoarsely before ge flipped him on his back, softly bit the tempting curve between throat and shoulder, while he pushed in slowly but steadily, feeling Jack open up eagerly, welcoming the hot intruder into his body, pushing back on its hardness making sure it hit his prostata until he arched his back, his head hanging over the edge of the couch, his hair flying around his face when he moved his head wildly.
Chase steadied him before he pulled out, teasing him with his patience, and entered him again making sure he paid enough attention to the sweet spot inside.
He made slow love to him, took his time finding each sensitive place on the skin, taking care of each scar he could reach, gently caressing each sign of former abuse, as if he tried to remove it, to make it fade away, to make the other man heal in body and soul.
They moved together as one, moved in perfection until they reached the peak.
The climax shattered them both, left them lying in each othes arms, entangled, nearly consciousless, suddenly free.
Chase came to at first, watched the face beneath, the stradled body still impaled, tried to understand what had happened.
He kissed him, laying all his love into the kiss, when he pulled out, feeling him responding to his actions.
* * * * *
The world seemed to drown in waves, dark flood covering everything. Tony cursed himself, cursed his fate, cursed Jack, while he drove through the rain.
He felt betrayed, deceived by the one person in the world, he ‘ d thought, he could trust without restrictions, trust with everything.
* * * * *
“What is it... with Tony?” Chase asked, watching Jack gripping his trousers, after he had closed the first buttons of his shirt. Jack glanced at him. “It doesn ‘ t matter. Forget it!”
“No chance,” Chase answered.
“Have to go now.” Jack nodded to the window, where the sunlight threw its golden glare over the wet earth, made everything glisten and gleam, warming up the room itself, where Chase, still naked, nestled on the couch.
Jack moved his eyes to the ground before he spoke. “At first one thing has to be clear. Whatever might happen, Kim may never know!” His determined gaze met Chases, whose only flickered a second. “I promise. Nothing will ever hurt her.”
Jack left out a deep breathe before he answered low. “When Erin fired me, I only could think about talking to Tony. I wanted to speak to him, to hear, what he might think, to... maybe to learn if there still might be a chance, when things would change for both of us... .”
He sighed and looked out of the window, where a single cloud suddenly covered the sun, throwing its shadow over the world.
“I called him, told him... ,” he paused.”I begged him to speak to me, to allow me to see him, pracically laid on my knees... ”
He shrugged. “Tony couldn ‘ t.”
Jack gulped audibly. “He told me it might be for the best, that I should grip the opportunity... I just... in this moment, I couldn ‘ t deal with it.”
He looked back at Chase. “But now I can.”
He bent down to kiss the other man, who immediately took his face into his hands trying to deepen the kiss until finally Jack broke free, closing the last buttons on his clothes. “You know,” he said warningly.
“I know. Never a word, I swear.” Chase followed him with his eyes, not doubting, that though Jack might think this would be the end, it probably was the beginning of something. And he leant back, when the door was shut from the outside, closing his eyes, imagining Jack walking down the street, maybe turning back, watching the place and thinking about returning to him soon.