|shannon730 (shannon730) wrote in ats_btvs_fanfic,|
@ 2007-07-25 15:27:00
|Entry tags:||author: shannon730, willow|
Drabble: Tired (Willow)
Theme(s): 01. Alone
Disclaimer/claimer: Not mine, they belong to Joss Whedon, ME, UPN, FOX, WB
Summary: Willow is tired of feeling alone
She was tired of feeling alone. Tired of not feeling needed. Tired of not feeling like she was doing something to help someone. She’d told both Buffy and Xander about her feelings but they didn’t understand. She was needed, they’d told her. She wasn’t alone, she had Kennedy, and they were always just a phone call away. Xander had even pointed out that there were over a hundred slayers living in dorms in her backyard.
They were right, of course, Kennedy and the new slayers were here, and she was needed to train the new girls but she still felt alone. Having people around didn’t make her less lonely. Kennedy didn’t love her, not the way Tara did, or Oz. She knew Kennedy could decide to move on at any time and would leave her alone. She knew the difference in years was small but in many ways Kennedy was so much younger than she was, she was still looking for someone to have fun with, not someone to feel safe with.
And she wasn’t needed anymore, she wasn’t helping, not like she used to. Not like in Sunnydale. Oh, she trained slayers and patrolled but it wasn’t the same. If she wasn’t here to do those things, there were literally thousands of others to pick up the slack now. It made her feel unnecessary. She liked feeling needed, as much as Buffy didn’t like the attention and responsibility she had, It made her feel like she belonged. It made her feel less alone.