Of course he hadn't wanted to go -- nobody chooses death when life has so much to offer. She held onto him and buried her face into his neck, crying for the both of them. River had felt the pain, too. It was impossible not to when you were this close to somebody.
"Here now." She hugged him tighter. "But it was alone. Dark. Starless. Something -- you -- snapped." Ianto snuffed out in a crunch of bone. River shuddered again and pulled back to touch shaking fingers to his mouth. "Ruined your suit..."