The girl across the street and down the block. (![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} xo_tara_xo) wrote in ![[info]](http://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} asperger,@ 2007-12-24 08:51:00 |
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Howdy...
I'm Tara. I've never been officially diagnosed with Asperger but when I read all the documentation on symptoms I usually can pick out about 90% of the traits that I can apply to myself.
I like to call myself a "Parallel Player" as I don't like to be involved with people but I like to be active where there are large gatherings of people. I can't go to Starbucks with a friend but I can sit there alone for hours. Same with work. We have a cubicle like setting and I always pick the one with the least amount of people around. Usually in the corner where I can still hear everything. Email and IM are my best friends as it keeps me in the loop but no need to actively pursue physical contact with anyone other than my partner or close family members.
I have been this way my entire life. I actually spent my elementary school years throwing a tennis ball up against the wall cause I didn't like to play with the other kids.
I don't really have good control over my verbal skills. I tend to say something before thinking and it can be really inappropiate. I'm not aware that it's inappropriate until I see the faces of people around me and think "uh oh". That happens on a daily basis so I'm apologizing a lot it seems. Though I never mean to intentially hurt someone's feelings or come off and being rude. It happens. I'm used to it. Sometimes I even get a good laugh at myself after realizing what I said.
I also suffer from depression with anxiety but medication has a good control on that. Some days I'm a mess. Most days I function pretty well and actually like occupying my body. On the days that I don't, I just move a little more slower and cautiously.
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