User: i_want_2 Date: 2009-11-30 17:54 Subject: Losing it. Security: Public Tags: rip

I had to kill a mouse tonight. The god damned cat caught it in the yard, but instead of killing it, the cat harmed it and toyed with it. To put it out of its misery I killed the damned thing. Now I am feeling a little heart sick from guilt because it was an innocent creature. I hate times like these. The animal had done nothing to me, was not a threat, and was only trying to survive, then I had to kill it.

To take an innocent life is the worst feeling in the world emotionally.

User: spacelogic Date: 2009-11-30 14:02 Subject: numbers Security: Public Mood: worried Music: Bruce Springsteen - The Wrestler

A while back I was looking through a collection of brochures for different programs at my school and caught myself thinking "wow, there're a lot of women on these brochures!" Then I thought "I wonder how many there are, exactly," and counted. End result: 13 women, 17 men, and a few I couldn't positively identify. Hm.

I think part of the reason I thought it looked good was that they had women on the brochures for "male" fields (CS, engineering) and men on the "female" fields' ones (nursing, I believe also culinary arts) so I was expecting good numbers too. But there's also the male default here. I noticed the women. The men were to be expected. I remember reading about a study where men and women were shown videos of conversations and asked who had dominated them, and they thought women were dominating conversations when the time taken by men and women was equal, and saw balance when the men talked more.

Another case of that crops up in the apparent "crisis" in American Judaism. That most religions are and have historically been run by men isn't an issue, but as soon as one appears to be dominated by women, it's a problem. Note that the only man quoted in that article as saying that gender imbalance isn't a problem is speaking from a place where men are the majority -- that kind of imbalance is fine, people!

Have I mentioned lately that I'm tired of misogyny?

User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-30 17:00 Subject: Last day of NaBloPoMo and WriSoMiFU Security: Public Tags: icons, icons - birds, icons - books, icons - food and drink, icons - misc, icons - misc animals, icons - people, icons - seasonal

Just a small batch of icons for today. And it's the last day of NaBloPoMo. I've managed to post every day and I've succeeded on WriSoMiFu and written every day. I'm going to keep the writing up into December, but not the posting. Although I do still have a lot of pictures to icon so there will still be regular icon posts.
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User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-29 21:35 Subject: 50 One liners. Security: Public Mood: calm Tags: challenge:one liners, character:blade, character:blade/lester, fandom:primeval, genre:fiction, genre:sentences, title:blade one liners

Characters Blade, Lester, Mini-Lesters
Fandom Primeval
Rating PG-18
Challenge One Liners

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User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-28 20:56 Subject: Icon post Security: Public Tags: icons, icons - animals, icons - birds, icons - dessert, icons - dogs, icons - food and drink, icons - misc, icons - monkeys, icons - people, icons - places (man made), icons - places (natural), icons - seasonal

Icons - there will actually be fic as well but probably on denial so I'm posting these now.
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User: spacelogic Date: 2009-11-28 11:09 Subject: how not to overcome a phobia Security: Public Mood: aggravated

I broke my glasses last night. In the morning, when I sheepishly reported to Mum what had happened, she told me I should find a backup pair (don't have one; it's been years and my prescription changed) and call the optometrist. Now, I am a logical person, but do not ask me to make a phone call if there is any alternative. I will panic, shut down, and become defensive. The only kind of phone calls I can handle are when someone calls me, when I call home, when I call somewhere I know a robot will answer, and when I have absolutely no choice. It's hard enough talking to strangers in person, or emailing them; not knowing who'll be at the other end of the phone is impossible. And it's not just that I need to make more calls, goddammit. I feel ill when I'm pushed. And nobody understands. *single tear*

User: i_want_2 Date: 2009-11-28 07:34 Subject: Fic: Animals & Nature 1/1 Supernatural Security: Public Tags: fic, supernatural

Title: Animals & Nature
Author: Lopaka Tanu
Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural.
Characters: Dean, Castiel, A Loon and Some Ducks
Words: 615
Prompt: Without weapons, time for D/C styled vacation.
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: Adult
Warnings: Threats, Sexual Situations
Summary: A peaceful moment off from the apocalypse.
Author's Note: For the QuickFire 'Thanksgiving' Challenge on deancastiel
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User: spacelogic Date: 2009-11-27 16:37 Subject: meta: squicks and siblings Security: Public Mood: pensive Tags: babylon 5, fannish, geekery

Claudia Christian mentioned in a blog post the other day that a B5 director ("who had clearly never watched the show") had told her to play her scenes with Sheridan more "sexy and coquettish" and I had such a strong "EWNOGROSS" reaction that I had to step back and analyze why. I can handle all kinds of fic/pairings, even if I prefer to avoid them. But Sheridan/Ivanova disgusts me, and thinking about it I've come to the conclusion that it's because they're too much like siblings.

It's kind of funny, I suppose. I can handle all kinds of screwed-up pairings if I understand the kink, even if I don't share it. I can deal with non-con, power imbalance including parent/child incest, aliens... lots of stuff. And I'm on IJ substantially because I used to have a good friend who wrote and read Weasleycest, and while I wasn't into it I didn't like the idea of her ability to do so being restricted. But despite this, sibling incest remains one of my biggest squicks.

Maybe it's because I have siblings I'm close to, and the idea of people perverting that kind of relationship feels too close to home. But I have parents I'm close to, too, and I can handle parent/child type stuff. I suppose in the Sheridan/Ivanova case, there's the added factor that they're not related by blood or by legal definition, and I've got those siblings too and know how upsetting I'd find it if people ignored that and assumed that we were sexually involved. Ties in to the whole "a man and a woman can't be just friends ever" cultural assumption, which I hate because I used to be the girl who had all guy friends and wasn't into any of them, no, really, stop teasing me, Mum! *coughs* Tangent there. Anyway, I think there's another factor.

Actors are often treated as people whose job is to convey emotions, deliver lines, and embody personalities. They are, of course. But another job they do is play relationships, and they're often not as good at that. We've all seen a big romantic storyline completely fizzle because the main romance lacked chemistry. Then, too, parent-child dynamics on screen and stage often fall flat. But the most commonly disappointing relationships I'm used to seeing are sibling ones. Screen siblings, whether bickering or affectionate, tend to fail to convince. And so I guess when I see a sibling relationship I like, I really don't like seeing it taken through the "a man and a woman can't be just friends ever" cliché. So Sheridan and Ivanova, whose sibling vibe seems so clear to me, I can't bear to think of in a sexual situation.

(Claudia Christian, I may have mentioned, is brilliant at playing relationships. Yet another reason I love B5.)

User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-27 20:29 Subject: One Liners Claim Security: Public Tags: challenge:one liners, challenge:prompts

Fandom Primeval
Claim Blade

User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-27 14:12 Subject: Another Icon Post Security: Public Mood: accomplished Tags: icons, icons - animals, icons - birds, icons - books, icons - cats, icons - food and drink, icons - misc, icons - misc animals, icons - seasonal, icons - small furries

I lied :D Fic will be done tomorrow instead. It turned into a different prompt from the one I was intending to write lol.

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User: i_want_2 Date: 2009-11-26 10:35 Subject: Part 2 is nice enough Security: Public Tags: update

I started the next fic in the Dead Like Vin verse. It will involve the old west. The third fic, however, will jump to the early-mid twentieth century. I think this one will be a little longer than I had intended, which will be okay.

Also in the works, a 25,000 word Space: Above and Beyond fic. Debating right now whether I want to include mpreg or not. As you know, I don't just slot it in to any fic, that there is a reason for it in my other mpreg fics, (yes, even my crack fics).

Doing a little STXI ficlet before I switch over to the novella I started a few months back. There are a few plots I have been kicking around that have hijacked it. When I decide how to weave them in to the story proper, I will start it up again. In the mean while, my character voices in the fandom have become rusty and I need to do this ficlet to get them back.

Don't worry, TK, I will get to your birthday ficlet, I promise. There is just the problem with Spock/Ronon that you want in it. I've taken to feeling him as a bottom for Kirk lately and need to work his Dom mojo. So, Spock/Chekov, because Chekov is such a sweet bottom...or is that he has such a sweet bottom?

Wow, despite the chill outside, this is certainly turning out to be a toasty thanksgiving. Gotta go to my aunt and uncle's this afternoon. Might get something done before then, hopefully. If not, tomorrow definitely.

Toodles, ducks. Enjoy your day wherever you are no matter how you have to spend it.

User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-26 15:04 Subject: More icons. Security: Public Tags: icons, icons - animals, icons - big cats, icons - birds, icons - dogs, icons - food and drink, icons - misc, icons - misc animals, icons - places (man made)

I promise I'll try and have some fic for tomorrow

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User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-25 23:27 Subject: *rushes in* Security: Public Tags: icons, icons - animals, icons - big cats, icons - birds, icons - food and drink, icons - misc, icons - misc animals, icons - places (man made)

Nearly forgot to post today for NaBloPoMo...

Icons.

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User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-24 23:16 Subject: Who wants a new Profile Layout? Security: Public Mood: happy

I made myself one for my LJ (this is being crossposted to LJ and IJ) here and one for my IJ here.

I can make one in that style if anyone wants it or I can do one with a banner at the top, with or without section headings. Personally I would *not* recommend the style I have unless you really want to faff around with the text for ages to get it to fit exactly (too short and it looks silly, too long and it protrouds from the top and bottom of the layout and also looks silly), but that's your decision :D

Depending on what you want you may need to provide me with pictures. You'll get the graphic bits and the code and just have to paste your own bio text into it and if you really have issues I can probably talk you through it :D

Gil is technically first in the queue but until her internet comes back on I can't really get into what she wants lol.

User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-24 14:49 Subject: Yet another icon post Security: Public Mood: listless Tags: icons, icons - animals, icons - big cats, icons - birds, icons - misc, icons - people, icons - places (man made), icons - places (natural)

More icons for everyone :D There's still loads of these to go. I got carried away downloading images lol.

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User: i_want_2 Date: 2009-11-24 07:19 Subject: I'm feeling better, I think. Security: Public Tags: update

I am feeling a lot better than I did 2 days ago. There is still some soreness, nose still runs like a leaky faucet at times. Other than that, I am fine. Ribs still hurt from the coughing, though.

Am thinking up a new idea for a M7/DLM ficlet. Haven't decided which one to write, though.

Considering where to apply next. I know it is a little late, but I am tired of getting no where. At least applying I feel somewhat productive.

User: spacelogic Date: 2009-11-23 11:19 Subject: this is the long goodbye Security: Public Mood: awake Tags: family, games

Inexplicable 10-hour power outage last night. The weather's not even bad at all.

I appear to have lost my computer permanently -- I set up Age of Empires II and now everybody wants to play. Matisse took an 8-hour turn yesterday, and when Mum starts....

User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-23 16:58 Subject: Icons Security: Public Mood: contemplative Tags: icons, icons - animals, icons - big cats, icons - birds, icons - misc, icons - misc animals

Yet more icons. Am I boring you yet?

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User: featheredwolf Date: 2009-11-22 15:22 Subject: Icon Post Security: Public Tags: icons, icons - animals, icons - birds, icons - food and drink, icons - misc, icons - misc animals, icons - people, icons - places (man made)

Another batch of shinies. Apparently icon making is a great way to procrastinate.

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