Adding a bit of Element flavor

Now that I actually think about it, reading The Story of O at age ten may have had some effect.

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OKAY. So, Black Friday was actually pretty anti-climactic, which was just fine with me. However, EVERY DAY AFTER IT HAS BEEN NOTHING SHORT OF HORRIBLE OMG. People, seriously. Just. Just go away. GO AWAY. :|

Also, I wasn't able to get a lappytoppy like I had planned, which was a downer. I was bitter, not gonna like. Still, it ended up being a good thing. I mean...I really don't have that kind of money to spend.

So I bought a PSP (whaaaaaat, I said I didn't have that kind of money to spend - the kind of money a PSP requires is much lower okay!) and one little game.

( Spoilers for Cloud, Tidus, and Cecil's Odysseys, as well as general DISSIDIA gameplay )

In other news, I have been quietly freaking out over Yuletide (WHAT WAS I THINKING) and wrangling tags (ugh, wait, why did I choose a fandom where everyone only has a first name?!). LIFE IS EXCITING.

Oh, hey, fic recs.

Allure of Honey, FF: Dissidia fic by Sinnatious. Cloud winds up in an outfit he swore he would never wear again. Crossdressing. Everyone/Cloud.

This fic. THIS FIC. I lol'd A LOT. Poor Cloud. <333333


Made for Much, FFXII fic by Original-Elfkin. Balthier is tired of the Westersands. Tired of the heat, tired of the sand stuck in every place, tired of his itchy 5 o'clock shadow. But a puzzle involving Vaan presents an entertaining distraction from his troubles. Pre-slash BalthierXVaan.

Another one that made me laugh, plus I really, really like the characterizations. I guess lulz are my main source of entertainment, what can I say.

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From wannasmile.org, I bring you Kitteh News Anchors!

I really want to do a game on the Dark Heaven's Trilogy by Kylie Chan

Anyone know of them and would be interested?

You know another thing I love about Anne Bishop's books?

I love the role reversals. Men are stigmatized by rape, an attempt at rape, or the accusation of rape--INSTEAD OF WOMEN, THE VICTIMS. Women are viewed as the more stable gender; men are the ones who are in the position of 'overemotional' and 'hysterical.' Which is funny because it is a reversal of the way our society views us, but the behavior is not at all unrealistic for our culture, just amplified by magical excuses the way scientists put a microscope over bacteria. Look at this. Think about it. Women are the providers and protectors, not men. Men are in the social position of 'tempering' the women (this isn't as explicit as other reversals, but Falonar tells Surreal 'yeah, we do the grunt work because you guys are SO MUCH SCARIER when you get pissed off' and that draws parallels to the gendered views of parenting--the mother manages most of it and the father does the discipline.) The very way the story is told is a reversal in its own way; it's the story of the men only inasmuch as it is the story of how Jaenelle affects their lives.

Yes, we have Terreille, where there's the flip side to that--the negative one--but we also have decent male rulers in our world, and downright evil ones. It's reality, cast into fictionalized relief, emphasized by the support of the magic and manipulation to throw it into bold unignorable prominence.

I really, really loved her handling of the rut. Especially since I read a lot of supernatural stories, and even the ones that aren't romance novels screw this up consistently. Yes, she says, men have lusts, sure, and powerful physical urges, blah blah blah. But this does not even begin to make it okay. No, not even when it's all magical and shit! Considering that's a particularly rage inducing and deeply ingrained misogynistic part of our culture, that was beautiful to read.

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THE FANFICTION LOVE MEME

I'm gonna give it a try?

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These Black Jewels FSTs are just gorgeous. I haven't finished the downloads, but the lyrics fit perfectly.

Twilight Rhapsody - five songs about Witch (scroll down)

These Castles and Dreams - Wilhelmina Benedict

Black Jewels Trilogy - fan soundtrack (zip not working, but the lyrics are still worth perusing.)

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I was thinking thoughts about the media's treatment of celebrities--specifically female celebrities, prompted by the treatment of Megan Fox.

They at once expect and demand these celebrities to surrender private lives and display their desires, tastes, thoughts and opinions, and at the same time demand that these thoughts, tastes and opinions fall in line with the media's image of 'acceptable.' And I think we're all familiar with the media's image of acceptable--racism, sexism, ableism, heterosexism, the list goes on--so when Megan Fox shows that she's not only comfortable with her sexuality but not a demure/contained/controlled woman, they reject her. Spectacularly. And all those either threatened or sheeplike enough to follow do, and there's a huge percent of the population that is sheeplike in its adherence to 'the TV said so' or threatened by a sexy young woman who knows her own mind and is honest about it.

Whatever. She's awesome.

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Kink Bingo's December challenge: ohhh, it is so good to me. Yuletide fandoms up for grabs!

...although, as I look through them, they are slightly less delicious than last round. Last round I was looking through the leftover prompts and I kept going 'ooh, I haven't thought of that one in ages but I sure could write it!' Still, plenty of yum.

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So, my mom has pneumonia (I convinced her to go to the doctor because that's what I thought she had).

The cold that we've shared has escalated in her and I'm trying to avoid her fate. My cold is gone, it's my sinuses that are proving to be difficult in light of the recent snowfall.

I've gotten little sleep because of her snoring because the poor thing can't breathe at night. I've also been having f*cked up dreams because of it.

I've been dreaming in novels.

As in I'm READING entire novels that I've never read before in my sleep. After reading the passages in the book, the scene in my head turns into a movie that I watch. The one last night involved a male Cop who was chasing after a female killer and when she lured him to her home, she kept trying to seduce him, then sets him up to kill someone, causing him to shoot out of cold instinct. It's in that moment that DUN DUN DUN he realizes that the case he was following was of another serial killer that the female was a copycat and that killer was....him. He had lost his memories and in that cold blooded moment, he realized just who he was...then he shot himself. 0_____0!

Suspense-filled, but f*cked up.

There was another one that involved the Demon Librarian of Hell's Library at a conference talking about difficult patrons with the Angel Librarian of Heaven's Library. They proceeded to then discuss an interlibrary loan service with the Limbo Librarian by conference "phone" (it was a conch shell). 0_o;

Speaking of the library not in my dreams, things are going well in Library Land. I'll be taking charge of the Civil Service Test books in January at the downtown library. ^__^ I've also successfully ordered some books for my subject class and wrote my first monthly report.

I also got my first "nut". If someone asks you to look up the word 'commandment' in the dictionary, then proceeds to disagree with you about the dictionary meaning, then goes into a suitcase to pull out their bible, then have you find a passage, then proceed to read you that passage, then proceed to give you their interpretation....back away very slowly when another librarian rescues you, then run away while the patron's back is turned. (If you get me in person, ask me to tell the story. It's much better in person. Those who have heard some of my 'library stories' can attest to that, LOL)

For WSE, it seems that I may be teaching some beginner computer classes. I have to draft a class plan and figure out days to do such. Now that WSE has a projector and laptops, we can host some computer classes. I just want to test drive hooking up a laptop to the projector.

I've also been preparing holiday cards & gifts to mail out. My goal is to have most packages in the mail by the end of the week for international folks, with a few domestics as well. I just need time to personalize items. I've got everything is labeled. ^___^

Someone writes a whole huge essay titled The Lust Arc = IchiHime FAIL which, among other priceless gems of logic, claims that because soppy displays of concern were not made in the midst of a battleground, they TOTES DON'T CARE ABOUT EACH ENOUGH (FOR ME).

I'm not going to address the shipping, because I don't really 'ship in this series and I don't care. What I am going to address if the fact that because a young woman who made an enormously brave choice to sacrifice herself asked for help after an extended period of time where she was isolated, threatened, terrified and had her head fucked with, they explicitly equate her with evil cannibalistic spirits.

I cannot believe I ever even skim the surface of this fandom. I am also not capable of resounding-enough rude gestures over the internet. But it is, in my elegance and eloquence, all I have to offer, because I am still trying not to dissolve into obscenities over rage-inducing things.

I REALLY REALLY NEED SOMETHING LESS RAGE-INDUCING. SOMETHING. ANYTHING.

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Ask Amy tells rape victims they did it to themselves. Any words I would have for this are obscene and full of hate, and I'm trying to cut down on that.

Mike Briggs eloquently debunks the popular arguments supporting piracy one by one.

an NYT article on female desire.

Patrick Stewart on domestic violence. Beautiful.

fiction_theory's lovely post about and containing links concerning the relationships between agents and new writers. Specifically it contains a link to this remark by an agent:

I rejected a manuscript that I had been seriously considering last week because upon a cursory online search, I found a LiveJournal post by the author badmouthing me and several of my colleagues for what she thought were excessive response times. Well, that blog post cost her representation from at least one agent. (OH, and it was a LOCKED LiveJournal post. You do know that Google Reader doesn't respect locked posts, right? Well, you do now.)

I feel like 'mind your damn manners jesus christ' should be sort of an acknowledged constant--ever heard of common courtesy, people? Especially in this type of scenario when you are asking a stranger to take a leap of faith. But entitlement, I have noted, is heavy in many young in America.

Also LOCKED POSTS ARE UNPROTECTED AAAAAAAH **terrified**

ETA: Falconesse with the math behind Harlequin’s vanity press: how many books you’d have to sell to break even, hidden costs, and the like. Recommended reading for anyone who wants to self-publish, vanity publish, or get published.

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1. My username is ______ because ______: My username is pansexual because I was looking for a journal name to replace mjslsbs and this one was offered to me from someone at tradingspaces and cause I have a dirty mind... I fell in love with it

2. My name is _____ because ______: Immortal Aussie because that is currently my online handle. I'm Australian and I thought it sounded cool when I was half asleep and stuck for idea.s

3. My journal is titled ____ because ____: The Den of Immortal Aussie- because a Den is a place where people live and this is where I 'live' on IJ

4. My default userpic is ____ because ____: Red/Orange ocean with 'I threw Bitter Tearts at the Ocean but all that came back were the tides' well along with most of my icons it was made by a friend, the quote sounds awesome too.

1) Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands [fannish etc.] that you've had an obsessive fannish love or interest in at some time in your life.
2) Have your f-list guess your favourite character/member from each item.
3) When someone guesses correctly, strike through the item and put the name of your favorite character next to it.

1. Final Fantasy VIII
2. Final Fantasy XII
3. Avatar: The Last Airbender
4. Psych
5. Lost
6. Phineas and Ferb
7. Slayers
8. GetBackers
9. Star Trek AOS
10. Gundam Wing
11. Pirates of the Caribbean
12. Petshop of Horrors
13. Yami no Matsuei
14. Harry Potter
15. Junjou Romantica
16. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
17. Zombieland
18. Final Fantasy VII
19. Final Fantasy III
20. Scrubs

:D

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Glee: Hairography

So let me get this straight: those precious abled Glee kids singing over another choir is supposed to be fucking heartwarming?

You know what would happen outside of TV land, if you just started singing over another choir's performance? Nothing good, let me assure you. How fucking rude and entitled can these people be? So now treating performers with complete disrespect and undermining their efforts is 'progressive?' Fuck you, Glee.

Not to mention my disgust with the epilepsy joke.

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Nabbed from a few people. ^__^





What type of Fae are you?

Legend of the Seeker: now with 500% more delicious femslash! APPROVED. Okay, it's all subtext, but let me dream.



I've been reading books about World War II and the Vietnam war. Not the most pleasant, upbeat or rejuvenating of subject material. I feel a little worn out.

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I hate family holidays. It's not as bad as it used to be. There isn't a mind numbing soul obliterating anxiety about them anymore as there used to be. There's just a dull ache of worry and some slight stomach tremors. Really the worst bit was that I thought I'd probably never have to go to a shin dig like this again. I would go one day, I just would never have to.

I didn't want to talk about where I'd been what I'd been doing and how I was. I'm better but not so well that I can always talk about Zac or Wyoming or what was a fairy tale life that while childish and unsustainable was also beautiful. I just can't talk about it especially with people who don't get it and no one in my family gets it.

Instead I gave short answers and listened to long unending diatribes of how awesome everyone else is. I was glad they were well but I could have done without the jabs at where they were compared to me. I sincerely hope I never did that to them or anyone else, though my successes are so few and far between, I'm sure I've had little opportunity to knock some else further down that way.

In particular my cousin, who works at Fenway went on and on about how boring but glamorous her job was, how much she hated living at home (though she does nothing there but sleep and hang out), and how wonderful her parties and nights out were. I wanted her to be successful. I was prepared to hear about her success and joy so it didn't even sting that much when she kept slighting me and where I was or discarding some of the work I have to do like chores and house upkeep and whatnot.

What did sting was to find out later that her job at Fenway pays $9/hr she works no more than 30hrs a week and she doesn't get benefits. She'd sat there and scorned my retail work as less and demeaning when we make the same hourly rate, I work full time and my job gives me benefits. I don't have an hours commute by public transportation to pay for or anything.

In other more pleasant news my bro got a letter from Mass Maritime and we think it might be his acceptance *hopefully*. I've got to wait for him to come home and open it but I'm super hopeful for him. It's very exciting.

Also, they've finally corrected the comp and literacy portions of the mtels, I should finally have results and hopefully a license on the 9th. Maybe I've be able to pick up some second term work or start vigorously looking for the fall. I'm apprehensive and excited. I don't know what I'll do if this doesn't work and my parents feel strongly I'll need several other back up plans that I'm not sure how to approach but I'll have to figure something out soon I guess.

The Pancake lade apparently makes not only yummy pancakes but also yummy Mandou(like dumplings but very big with rice inside) and hamburgers(only the meat). So, I bought some pancakes for desert for me and breakfast for the roommate and I also got about 6 burger patties. This will be pretty much my food for most of the rest of the week...I am sad, leave me alone! It's yummy and I am saving money as well. YAY

In other news, I have a meeting tomorrow morning and it means that I will be out of my house for work for 12 hours. What sucks, those 3 hours that we have to be at work extra we are not getting payed for.

I need to do my homework for YMCA but am tired and want to watch Eureka. And no, I didn't type anything this weekend but I have a great excuse:I had to work!!!

I got Aaron addicted to Eureka so now I just need to make him catch up...I am hoping Buffy will finish downloading soon so I can have a marathon. YAY

I am almost done getting all the presents, I got plate thingies for my mom and her friends, now I just need to finish up and find what else I am sending to my mom...Tex is hard to shop for but I think I might have found something...

Anyway, now onto Eureka!

p.s. OMG, Merling came out Sat and I forgot, got to load episode*runs off to hunt down merlin*

Procrastination: it does beautiful or maybe just crazy things.

bishoptoqueen: a fan community for old school Anita Blake. Because I miss her. Probably no one will join but what the hell, it'll be fun to play in.

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