Thinking of Him
Title: Thinking of Him
Fandom: Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
Pairing: Sarah Connor/Kyle Reese
Theme set: C
Rating: PG-13 for mild sexual connotations
Warning[s]: Spoilers through both Terminator movies.


#01 - Beautiful - Her inner strength is what makes her most beautiful to him.

#02 - Heart - In two short days he managed to win her heart for a lifetime.

#03 - Smile - He always wondered about that sad smile in the picture, and what she was thinking about when it was taken.

#04 - Feeling - There is nothing like the feeling of your baby's first kick, and knowing that a piece of him will always be with you.

#05 - Knowledge - The knowledge that Kyle had crossed time for her made Sarah weak in the knees.

#06 - Ageless - She was captured youthful in the picture he owned, and would be forever ageless to him.

#07 - Time - Time brought them together, and keeps them apart.

#08 - Desire - Her desire for him doesn't diminish over the years.

#09 - Dramatic - His death had been dramatic, but necessary for her survival; a sacrifice he had made willingly.

#10 - Subdued - The years may have subdued her fear of the terminators, but they hadn't lessened her hatred of them.

#11 - Gold - She has a gold band with his name inscribed on it, which she wore while pregnant.

#12 - Silver - Silver moonlight shone on his body, during their last night together.

#13 - Dark – The dark cannot claim her as long as she has John by her side.

#14 – Light – The light of their love shines through their son.

#15 – Twilight – She wonders if she will see him again in her twilight years.

#16 – Dawn – Dawn always comes too quick, banishing her dreams of Kyle.

#17 – Power – When she feels like she can't go on, she feels Kyle's power flow through her, and she carries on.

#18 - Protect - He was sent to protect her, but he became much more than just a guardian.

#19 - Courage - He left her the courage to go on, for the sake of their son and the rest of humanity.

#20 - Faith - She has faith that one day they'll be reunited.

#21 - Pray - When she needs to tap her hidden reserves of strength, she will recite his name, rank, and serial number as though in prayer.

#22 - Intensity - The intensity of their love keeps her going through the darkest hour.

#23 – Cool – She has learned to keep her cool from remembering how he handled disbelievers.

#24 - Warm - He kept her warm their first night together, and she can still recall the feeling of sleeping in his arms.

#25 - Whisper - Sometimes, in the night, she can almost hear him whisper her name.

#26 – Secret – It is no secret that she still loves him and misses him, even after all these years.

#27 – Promise – He will never know that the promise he made was to his own son.

#28 - Strength - He gave her the strength to live and raise their son on her own.

#29 - Weakness - Their son is not only her greatest weakness, but also her greatest strength.

#30 - Love - Their love plays on in a giant time loop.

#31 - Hate - She hates the machines who took him from her.

#32 – Silence – She fears the absolute silence of a world completely overrun by machines.

#33 – Distress – Trying to decide how much of Kyle to reveal to their son causes Sarah much distress.

#34 - Fate - Kyle spoke of fate, and that is what keeps her going when the desire to give in to the machines gets too tempting.

#35 – Fortune – She has never wanted material riches; just the fortune of friends and love and a future.

#36 - Nightmare - Her worst nightmare is that she loses John, too, and Kyle's death will have been for nothing.

#37 - Justice - Each time she destroys one of those things, it is a small justice for his death.

#38 - Death - While she mourns his death, he is yet to be born.

#39 – Moon – Like a teenager, she moons over what might have been.

#40 – Sun – Every morning that the sun rises, Sarah knows she has another day to fight for his future.

#41 – Star – Sometimes she feels as though he is among the stars, watching down on her and their son.

#42 – Tower – She is John's tower of strength, as Kyle was hers in the beginning.

#43 - Stranger - He was little more than a stranger, and yet the second best man she'd ever know.

#44 - Familiar - His face, in the features of their son, is as familiar to her as her own.

#45 - Forgotten - She has never forgotten what he sacrificed for her.

#46 - Memory - The memory of his touch haunts her every sleepless night.

#47 - Change - If they change the future, will she never meet him?

#48 – Color – She never got to ask about his favourite colour; he was gone too quickly.

#49 - Shadow - He taught her to live in the shadows of society.

#50 - Breath - Sometimes Sarah stands in the wind, pretending it is Kyle's warm breath on her skin.