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I had a bit of an altercation today.
It really drove home to me that I need to find a way to actually deal with my stress. Because it bottles up and it bottles up and then it sort of explodes, and it leaves me upset and drained and usually having shouted at someone. My problem is mostly that I barely notice or acknowledge it building up until it's at critical levels and eating at me inside, and then I only really realize it's there when it all comes out.
Not the most healthy of patterns. I need to find a train to stand under and scream my frustration out to, I think.
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Computer broke down in October. Monitor broke down in November. Mom's TV? Is starting to break down in December. Oi. I just can't catch a break.
( Hazelnut-Chocolate Linzer Cookies )
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Now that I actually think about it, reading The Story of O at age ten may have had some effect.
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Oops. Sorry I'm so late. Shopping today, and then the wind blew my garbage can into the next county just about and I had to go traipsing after it.
( The Neelys' Butter Cookies )
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I really want to do a game on the Dark Heaven's Trilogy by Kylie Chan
Anyone know of them and would be interested?
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You know another thing I love about Anne Bishop's books?
I love the role reversals. Men are stigmatized by rape, an attempt at rape, or the accusation of rape--INSTEAD OF WOMEN, THE VICTIMS. Women are viewed as the more stable gender; men are the ones who are in the position of 'overemotional' and 'hysterical.' Which is funny because it is a reversal of the way our society views us, but the behavior is not at all unrealistic for our culture, just amplified by magical excuses the way scientists put a microscope over bacteria. Look at this. Think about it. Women are the providers and protectors, not men. Men are in the social position of 'tempering' the women (this isn't as explicit as other reversals, but Falonar tells Surreal 'yeah, we do the grunt work because you guys are SO MUCH SCARIER when you get pissed off' and that draws parallels to the gendered views of parenting--the mother manages most of it and the father does the discipline.) The very way the story is told is a reversal in its own way; it's the story of the men only inasmuch as it is the story of how Jaenelle affects their lives.
Yes, we have Terreille, where there's the flip side to that--the negative one--but we also have decent male rulers in our world, and downright evil ones. It's reality, cast into fictionalized relief, emphasized by the support of the magic and manipulation to throw it into bold unignorable prominence.
I really, really loved her handling of the rut. Especially since I read a lot of supernatural stories, and even the ones that aren't romance novels screw this up consistently. Yes, she says, men have lusts, sure, and powerful physical urges, blah blah blah. But this does not even begin to make it okay. No, not even when it's all magical and shit! Considering that's a particularly rage inducing and deeply ingrained misogynistic part of our culture, that was beautiful to read.
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These Black Jewels FSTs are just gorgeous. I haven't finished the downloads, but the lyrics fit perfectly.
Twilight Rhapsody - five songs about Witch (scroll down)
These Castles and Dreams - Wilhelmina Benedict
Black Jewels Trilogy - fan soundtrack (zip not working, but the lyrics are still worth perusing.)
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I was thinking thoughts about the media's treatment of celebrities--specifically female celebrities, prompted by the treatment of Megan Fox.
They at once expect and demand these celebrities to surrender private lives and display their desires, tastes, thoughts and opinions, and at the same time demand that these thoughts, tastes and opinions fall in line with the media's image of 'acceptable.' And I think we're all familiar with the media's image of acceptable--racism, sexism, ableism, heterosexism, the list goes on--so when Megan Fox shows that she's not only comfortable with her sexuality but not a demure/contained/controlled woman, they reject her. Spectacularly. And all those either threatened or sheeplike enough to follow do, and there's a huge percent of the population that is sheeplike in its adherence to 'the TV said so' or threatened by a sexy young woman who knows her own mind and is honest about it.
Whatever. She's awesome.
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Kink Bingo's December challenge: ohhh, it is so good to me. Yuletide fandoms up for grabs!
...although, as I look through them, they are slightly less delicious than last round. Last round I was looking through the leftover prompts and I kept going 'ooh, I haven't thought of that one in ages but I sure could write it!' Still, plenty of yum.
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Someone writes a whole huge essay titled The Lust Arc = IchiHime FAIL which, among other priceless gems of logic, claims that because soppy displays of concern were not made in the midst of a battleground, they TOTES DON'T CARE ABOUT EACH ENOUGH (FOR ME).
I'm not going to address the shipping, because I don't really 'ship in this series and I don't care. What I am going to address if the fact that because a young woman who made an enormously brave choice to sacrifice herself asked for help after an extended period of time where she was isolated, threatened, terrified and had her head fucked with, they explicitly equate her with evil cannibalistic spirits.
I cannot believe I ever even skim the surface of this fandom. I am also not capable of resounding-enough rude gestures over the internet. But it is, in my elegance and eloquence, all I have to offer, because I am still trying not to dissolve into obscenities over rage-inducing things.
I REALLY REALLY NEED SOMETHING LESS RAGE-INDUCING. SOMETHING. ANYTHING.
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Ask Amy tells rape victims they did it to themselves. Any words I would have for this are obscene and full of hate, and I'm trying to cut down on that.
Mike Briggs eloquently debunks the popular arguments supporting piracy one by one.
an NYT article on female desire.
Patrick Stewart on domestic violence. Beautiful.
![[info]](http://s.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png) fiction_theory's lovely post about and containing links concerning the relationships between agents and new writers. Specifically it contains a link to this remark by an agent:
I rejected a manuscript that I had been seriously considering last week because upon a cursory online search, I found a LiveJournal post by the author badmouthing me and several of my colleagues for what she thought were excessive response times. Well, that blog post cost her representation from at least one agent. (OH, and it was a LOCKED LiveJournal post. You do know that Google Reader doesn't respect locked posts, right? Well, you do now.) I feel like 'mind your damn manners jesus christ' should be sort of an acknowledged constant--ever heard of common courtesy, people? Especially in this type of scenario when you are asking a stranger to take a leap of faith. But entitlement, I have noted, is heavy in many young in America. Also LOCKED POSTS ARE UNPROTECTED AAAAAAAH **terrified** ETA: Falconesse with the math behind Harlequin’s vanity press: how many books you’d have to sell to break even, hidden costs, and the like. Recommended reading for anyone who wants to self-publish, vanity publish, or get published.This entry was originally posted at http://shiegra.dreamwidth.org/68349.html. Please comment there using OpenID.
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Glee: Hairography
So let me get this straight: those precious abled Glee kids singing over another choir is supposed to be fucking heartwarming?
You know what would happen outside of TV land, if you just started singing over another choir's performance? Nothing good, let me assure you. How fucking rude and entitled can these people be? So now treating performers with complete disrespect and undermining their efforts is 'progressive?' Fuck you, Glee.
Not to mention my disgust with the epilepsy joke.
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Legend of the Seeker: now with 500% more delicious femslash! APPROVED. Okay, it's all subtext, but let me dream.
I've been reading books about World War II and the Vietnam war. Not the most pleasant, upbeat or rejuvenating of subject material. I feel a little worn out.
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I had to kill a mouse tonight. The god damned cat caught it in the yard, but instead of killing it, the cat harmed it and toyed with it. To put it out of its misery I killed the damned thing. Now I am feeling a little heart sick from guilt because it was an innocent creature. I hate times like these. The animal had done nothing to me, was not a threat, and was only trying to survive, then I had to kill it.
To take an innocent life is the worst feeling in the world emotionally.
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TITLE: 101 POSITIONS IN 20 MINUTE
AUTHOR: PEJA
RATING: PG-13, I think.
FANDOM: ALIAS SMITH AND JONES
PAIRING: HEYES/CURRY
AUTHOR'S NOTE: This came about when I saw the logo on a friend's shirt....which is now the title. It is just one of several stories on WWOMB as the direct result of a challenge issued from said logo. I fixated, OK?
Also, I want to break the ice on my Alias Smith And Jones list.
And so it begins
SUMMARY: Heyes wins something intriguing in a poker game.
FEEDBACK: better get some or I'm on strike.
Website: http://www.squidge.org/~peja/
DISCLAIMER: Don't own them in anything but spirit, but oh boy do they have spirit
NOTE: This fic goes xover in the next part so I'm tagging it xover
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and now, deeeep thoughts....
lj-tags: twitahs
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Well, it's that time of year again. The Twelve Days of Cookies Newsletter is here!
( Gingerbread Cookies for the Holidays )
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Title:Dance for me
Author: PEJA
Fandom 24
Pairing: Evil Alan York/Jack Bauer
Rating: R
Summary: Alan takes a step out of time.
Disclaimer: Don't own them, don't care.
Archive: Ask before posting anywhere. I insist on the headers remaining intact including the two MLs that this story is written to activate.
Warning: this is an AU. I couldn't figure out how to drop the characters out of that 24 hour time frame without slipping in some AU moments.
Disclaimer: 24 belongs to its creators.
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