five years ago
things can change so much in five years. five years ago, i couldn't go to the bar across the street by myself because i couldn't get myself to do it; now it's been, hmm, four years, i think, that i can't go to the bar across the street because i'm afraid that, if i do, i won't stop drinking. ever. i don't feel that way about bars in general or even having a drink now and then, but just thinking about that particular bar makes me think about nonstop drinking. five years ago, i didn't feel so far from normal.